Okay so I'm not a fantasy or medieval type of movie gal. I like Fluffy chic flicks. At least for the most part. Sometimes I step out of that comfort zone and watch something else. My profile states my faves are You've Got Mail, Fools Rush In, The Jerk and Full Metal Jacket. I love Office Space and Old School and Clueless, Legally Blonde, Cheaper by the Dozen (both the original and the new one with Steve Martin), and a million other fluffy chic flicks or goofy comedy movies. But, not much that is too serious or intense, blah, blah, blah.
So on to the movie review. H wanted to watch Eragon so I typed it up in my little Netflix list and bam, right to the door comes a movie for the boy. He doesn't ask for much in the way of movies so I was surprised and gladly got it.
I wasn't planning to watch but L was watching and I just didn't think a 4, nearly 5 year old would/should watch it sooooo I sat in just to answer questions. Explained when things got scary and just in general got sucked right on in to it.
This movie was awesome! I loved it! It goes on the must buy list because I could so watch it again. Really not my thing but it was good.
So that's my review. Good movie, two thumbs up.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
Mottoes
My mottoes are: No regrets and Take Risks. I think they go hand in hand.
By taking risks, I feel like I don't sit around and wonder "What if...." What if I did this differently? Or what if I didn't do that, say that? or What if I did say this? However, if I don't do something, I just have to tell myself that I made a choice, a decision. Then not think about it again. Its done!
However, does that mean that I always follow those, nope! Sometimes I don't take risks and sometimes I regret not taking a risk.
So anyway, no regrets and take risks! Life is just too short for anything else!
By taking risks, I feel like I don't sit around and wonder "What if...." What if I did this differently? Or what if I didn't do that, say that? or What if I did say this? However, if I don't do something, I just have to tell myself that I made a choice, a decision. Then not think about it again. Its done!
However, does that mean that I always follow those, nope! Sometimes I don't take risks and sometimes I regret not taking a risk.
So anyway, no regrets and take risks! Life is just too short for anything else!
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Pets
I am feeling a bit sad tonight. Sad for my pets of days past. See the ex was not into animals, yet he kept agreeing to get them.
It started with Molly. She was a mutt. She was just a baby when I got her. She was so cool! One night I was home alone and so she was sleeping on the end of my bed. Well something made a noise near the window. She stood and growled deep in her throat, the fur on her back stood on end and she stayed on alert for a while. I just laid there and watched. She slowly relaxed but stayed on alert a bit longer and then finally looked at me with what looked like a smile and a nod, as if to say, "Coast is clear." She feel back to sleep and so did I. Good girl!!! I had her for only 6 months. He tried to kill her for tearing up stuff that he left out (umm duh!) so I found her a new home. Bye Molly.
Then came Dixie and Rebel. They were mini-dachshunds and gee do you think my ex was from the South? Well Dixie got very, very sick and she died. The breeder gave us, no questions asked, Maggie to replace her. We had them for about 17 months but then it was time to move from Florida to Virginia and we were having trouble finding a place to take pets, plus H was about to be born and it was just too much..... I think the real reason is the ex just was lazy and was done. We found a great couple to take them! They had 10 acres of land and a few other wiener-dogs. Maggie soon had 5 pups, she must have really liked her new home. Bye Maggie and Rebel.
At some point while having M&R, we got a cat. He wasn't around long... A month, maybe? Sydney, I think?
I also had a rabbit during this time too. Lee was a pure white rabbit. Again, ex got fed up.... rabbit gone. He turned out to be a she and had several babies! I knew the lady who took him. Bye Lee.
Then we got to VA, and got Scooby. A mixed pup that was just so adorable! We had him for about 6 months. My job was beyond busy and I was working really long hours. Couldn't give him as much attention as he needed, plus, ummm hello the ex never helped, no really! He hated the dog. Bye Scooby.
Then came Gambit. Gambit was an orange tabby cat that we got at the animal shelter! He came with the name. It was love at first site. For all of us, even the ex. Gambit was great, the perfect pet. We had him for 6 years!!! But the reason he is gone is because we were moving to North Dakota. The ex was not willing to look long for a place we could have him. If there are any of the pets I hate him for getting rid of this is the one or two. I think he hates himself for it also. Gambit was just that special. Bye Gambit.
After having G for about 1 year, we got Huskies. We went to get a solid white one because the ex said that was the only kind of dog he had ever wanted! So we got there. No whites that weren't already spoken for. We got to looking and picked out two. Yes two. Beau was a red/white and Anna was gray/black/white.... the kind that looks a lot like a wolf. They were awesome! I loved these dogs so much. Especially Beau. Do you believe soul mates can extend to animals? I do. We had this weird bond/connection. On Dec 22, 1999, they had two pups. One was solid white (he was special too) and the other looked just like mom, oh and both boys. Alas after 18 months-2 years ish, the time was up. We had to move again and again, the ex had blinders on to finding a place we could have the dogs. We took them "temporarily" to his parents. That temp situation lasted far too long, they were adopted out, and in the meantime we got a new dog. Because it was easier to hide a mini dachshund than an 80 lb and 40 lb Husky. Bye Beau, I miss you forever. Bye Anna. Bye Puppies too!
So as I mentioned, we got Baylee. She was another one that I was connected to. I could talk to her like she was a person and she knew what I meant. I told her to clean her toys. She did it. I told her to get a certain toy, she would pass others in search of the special one. I had her doing all kinds of cool tricks! However, if the ex came around, she would pee.... She was soooo scared of him and he hated her. So anyway, we had her from roughly 2000 until Summer of 2002. This is when I had L. She got really nervous around L. Didn't know how to act. One day she freaked and jumped on him by accident and freaked some more because she hadn't meant to jump on him. So I knew the time had come to get rid of her. My aunt agreed to take her. It was a great match! She fit right in over there and had started to relax again. Sadly she hurt her back and soon had to be put to sleep. Bye Baylee. I miss you.
Baylee was the last dog. I just couldn't do it anymore while married to him. At that point, I knew we would not stay together. I just knew it. Then we got rid of Gambit in 2003 (had him from 1997-2003). That really just sealed the deal for me.
But in 2004, he agreed to get me a new cat! But, not just any cat, a Ragdoll! I really wanted one! So we started talking to a breeder and some how got two of them, not just one. Sebastian and Zoe are nearly 3 (in April). The ex is gone now and I still have my cats. Yes as you could have guessed, he got sick of them. I basically took the attitude, "I pick them, loser."
And, now we (the kids and I) are at the point that we really want a dog. We love animals. We want one so bad. We have the yard for it but the house is small and they aren't great at helping me keep it clean but we are working on that.
So tonight I just wanted to give a spiritual shout out to my pets of the past.
It started with Molly. She was a mutt. She was just a baby when I got her. She was so cool! One night I was home alone and so she was sleeping on the end of my bed. Well something made a noise near the window. She stood and growled deep in her throat, the fur on her back stood on end and she stayed on alert for a while. I just laid there and watched. She slowly relaxed but stayed on alert a bit longer and then finally looked at me with what looked like a smile and a nod, as if to say, "Coast is clear." She feel back to sleep and so did I. Good girl!!! I had her for only 6 months. He tried to kill her for tearing up stuff that he left out (umm duh!) so I found her a new home. Bye Molly.
Then came Dixie and Rebel. They were mini-dachshunds and gee do you think my ex was from the South? Well Dixie got very, very sick and she died. The breeder gave us, no questions asked, Maggie to replace her. We had them for about 17 months but then it was time to move from Florida to Virginia and we were having trouble finding a place to take pets, plus H was about to be born and it was just too much..... I think the real reason is the ex just was lazy and was done. We found a great couple to take them! They had 10 acres of land and a few other wiener-dogs. Maggie soon had 5 pups, she must have really liked her new home. Bye Maggie and Rebel.
At some point while having M&R, we got a cat. He wasn't around long... A month, maybe? Sydney, I think?
I also had a rabbit during this time too. Lee was a pure white rabbit. Again, ex got fed up.... rabbit gone. He turned out to be a she and had several babies! I knew the lady who took him. Bye Lee.
Then we got to VA, and got Scooby. A mixed pup that was just so adorable! We had him for about 6 months. My job was beyond busy and I was working really long hours. Couldn't give him as much attention as he needed, plus, ummm hello the ex never helped, no really! He hated the dog. Bye Scooby.
Then came Gambit. Gambit was an orange tabby cat that we got at the animal shelter! He came with the name. It was love at first site. For all of us, even the ex. Gambit was great, the perfect pet. We had him for 6 years!!! But the reason he is gone is because we were moving to North Dakota. The ex was not willing to look long for a place we could have him. If there are any of the pets I hate him for getting rid of this is the one or two. I think he hates himself for it also. Gambit was just that special. Bye Gambit.
After having G for about 1 year, we got Huskies. We went to get a solid white one because the ex said that was the only kind of dog he had ever wanted! So we got there. No whites that weren't already spoken for. We got to looking and picked out two. Yes two. Beau was a red/white and Anna was gray/black/white.... the kind that looks a lot like a wolf. They were awesome! I loved these dogs so much. Especially Beau. Do you believe soul mates can extend to animals? I do. We had this weird bond/connection. On Dec 22, 1999, they had two pups. One was solid white (he was special too) and the other looked just like mom, oh and both boys. Alas after 18 months-2 years ish, the time was up. We had to move again and again, the ex had blinders on to finding a place we could have the dogs. We took them "temporarily" to his parents. That temp situation lasted far too long, they were adopted out, and in the meantime we got a new dog. Because it was easier to hide a mini dachshund than an 80 lb and 40 lb Husky. Bye Beau, I miss you forever. Bye Anna. Bye Puppies too!
So as I mentioned, we got Baylee. She was another one that I was connected to. I could talk to her like she was a person and she knew what I meant. I told her to clean her toys. She did it. I told her to get a certain toy, she would pass others in search of the special one. I had her doing all kinds of cool tricks! However, if the ex came around, she would pee.... She was soooo scared of him and he hated her. So anyway, we had her from roughly 2000 until Summer of 2002. This is when I had L. She got really nervous around L. Didn't know how to act. One day she freaked and jumped on him by accident and freaked some more because she hadn't meant to jump on him. So I knew the time had come to get rid of her. My aunt agreed to take her. It was a great match! She fit right in over there and had started to relax again. Sadly she hurt her back and soon had to be put to sleep. Bye Baylee. I miss you.
Baylee was the last dog. I just couldn't do it anymore while married to him. At that point, I knew we would not stay together. I just knew it. Then we got rid of Gambit in 2003 (had him from 1997-2003). That really just sealed the deal for me.
But in 2004, he agreed to get me a new cat! But, not just any cat, a Ragdoll! I really wanted one! So we started talking to a breeder and some how got two of them, not just one. Sebastian and Zoe are nearly 3 (in April). The ex is gone now and I still have my cats. Yes as you could have guessed, he got sick of them. I basically took the attitude, "I pick them, loser."
And, now we (the kids and I) are at the point that we really want a dog. We love animals. We want one so bad. We have the yard for it but the house is small and they aren't great at helping me keep it clean but we are working on that.
So tonight I just wanted to give a spiritual shout out to my pets of the past.
Different with different people
Kind of in continuation of my "Let's talk about sex" entry from yesterday..... This is another "Are we different with different people?"
I think so.
During a conversation with Goofball, we were basically saying that we had not seen each others "bad" sides. This is good, I think.
My ex used to say I am evil, he is scared of me, that I was selfish and a total bitch. Niiiice. He has said that for a million years (pretty much sometime during the first year, heck first months of our nearly 13 year marriage). But, I think that is because we actually brought out the worst in each other. That is just the way it was (is). As soon as I get on the phone with him, even now, I can feel that side coming to surface. I hate it!
I think when you are with certain people this is just the case. I mean we are who we are but with certain people, we may feel more at ease or we may feel good or a hundred other things.
I'm a fun person, caring and I'm not typically selfish. I think I'm generally a good person and a good listener and tons and tons of other good stuff. I mean we all have a bad side but it is about who we surround ourselves with and our attitudes that matter.
Someone that brings out the good, good stuff. Someone that brings out the bad, bad stuff.
So while I'm not a bitch exactly, I can surely be one at times.... :)
I think so.
During a conversation with Goofball, we were basically saying that we had not seen each others "bad" sides. This is good, I think.
My ex used to say I am evil, he is scared of me, that I was selfish and a total bitch. Niiiice. He has said that for a million years (pretty much sometime during the first year, heck first months of our nearly 13 year marriage). But, I think that is because we actually brought out the worst in each other. That is just the way it was (is). As soon as I get on the phone with him, even now, I can feel that side coming to surface. I hate it!
I think when you are with certain people this is just the case. I mean we are who we are but with certain people, we may feel more at ease or we may feel good or a hundred other things.
I'm a fun person, caring and I'm not typically selfish. I think I'm generally a good person and a good listener and tons and tons of other good stuff. I mean we all have a bad side but it is about who we surround ourselves with and our attitudes that matter.
Someone that brings out the good, good stuff. Someone that brings out the bad, bad stuff.
So while I'm not a bitch exactly, I can surely be one at times.... :)
Friday, March 23, 2007
Let's talk about sex
That's right ladies and gentlemen. Its Hot Monkey Sex Friday (HMSF). In honor of that, I thought.... "Let's talk about it!" especially since I have somethings on my mind that I'm a bit nervous to share with the person I want to share them with and what better way to say it than in a public place.... Kind of like going on a talk show to announce a big secret, right?
So Trapped posted something, and I thought about calling him out on this, then thought better of it and then in the end decided to just do it. Either he will forgive me because I'm damn cute or he won't and at least I had a good blog out of it..... (that is soooo wrong!). But.....
Once upon a time, Trapped posted this. He says women, if you don't like the sex you are getting talk about it. I don't disagree with it! However, I have comments. I have been so swamped busy I didn't really comment fully yet. So since I'm totally and completely frustrated here (doing it myself is just not cutting it anymore)! I haven't had HMS (or any sex any day of the week) for a few weeks. The last time I did was freakin' great but left me just wanting more and more. That's good but bad.
So what do I want to talk about? Well one of the things on my mind is sexual styles and preferences. I think that with different people we have different likes/dislikes. I know I'm not the same with different guys... at least I don't think so. I have limited experience since pre-marriage....back then I had a lot of flings and just one really long relationship (Hi, JJ! Miss you babe.... Hope the fam is well)..... Always different. Then I'm with Goofball and well, all I want to do is kiss him.... well not all I want to do, but I can't stop kissing him long enough to give him what I really, really and I mean really want to! (I know he is out there rolling his eyes saying I don't believe it)..... A BJ. Yep that's right, gawd, I want to do that so bad! Everytime I'm with him I think about it but just can't stop kissing him to do it, well that and nerves.
.... I'm nervous as H.E.L.L! to do it. What if I don't do it well? I have only done that to 3 other guys and I have never (oh.my.gawd.... I can't believe I'm going to admit this).... gotten a one of them to climax (okay my ex-h once but we were having angry sex, that's different, it was right before we filed for divorce.... I think). So does that mean I'm bad or just .... what? My ex(s?) would probably tell you differently because I could get them all damn close but just couldn't get it over that.... whatever. One guy I know for sure I wouldn't have been able to. He had the stamina of a .... I don't know something? But, I was with him for a year and he begged for more. Ugh!
Nuff embarassing myself with BJ talk.... and oh what was my point anyway? I was saying sex styles/preferences. I have never liked being on top. Never really felt good to me. There was one guy I was with that preferred this, fine. I did it with him but it was only okay, did nothing for me. But, I do like most other positions and I am very open to trying new things. I also like rough sex.... Ha, ha... I can hear Goofball laughing! But, its true expect with him so far, I just can't seem to want to have it too rough or hard or wild. I honestly like the way it is with him and I hate it to change, but it will and that's okay because it already has a little bit and it just got better so I am hoping for more of that getting more comfortable with each other to try new things and then maybe I will step out of my "holding back" mode that I'm in and let him see a little more of that side of me......
I can't believe I'm posting all this. I am just waiting for the emails and comments now.... I can see all the people coming here now because they did a search for "sex" and found me. That is another reason I haven't posted this before.
Well hope you were educated. Maybe more than you wanted!! Enjoy HMSF!!
So Trapped posted something, and I thought about calling him out on this, then thought better of it and then in the end decided to just do it. Either he will forgive me because I'm damn cute or he won't and at least I had a good blog out of it..... (that is soooo wrong!). But.....
Once upon a time, Trapped posted this. He says women, if you don't like the sex you are getting talk about it. I don't disagree with it! However, I have comments. I have been so swamped busy I didn't really comment fully yet. So since I'm totally and completely frustrated here (doing it myself is just not cutting it anymore)! I haven't had HMS (or any sex any day of the week) for a few weeks. The last time I did was freakin' great but left me just wanting more and more. That's good but bad.
So what do I want to talk about? Well one of the things on my mind is sexual styles and preferences. I think that with different people we have different likes/dislikes. I know I'm not the same with different guys... at least I don't think so. I have limited experience since pre-marriage....back then I had a lot of flings and just one really long relationship (Hi, JJ! Miss you babe.... Hope the fam is well)..... Always different. Then I'm with Goofball and well, all I want to do is kiss him.... well not all I want to do, but I can't stop kissing him long enough to give him what I really, really and I mean really want to! (I know he is out there rolling his eyes saying I don't believe it)..... A BJ. Yep that's right, gawd, I want to do that so bad! Everytime I'm with him I think about it but just can't stop kissing him to do it, well that and nerves.
.... I'm nervous as H.E.L.L! to do it. What if I don't do it well? I have only done that to 3 other guys and I have never (oh.my.gawd.... I can't believe I'm going to admit this).... gotten a one of them to climax (okay my ex-h once but we were having angry sex, that's different, it was right before we filed for divorce.... I think). So does that mean I'm bad or just .... what? My ex(s?) would probably tell you differently because I could get them all damn close but just couldn't get it over that.... whatever. One guy I know for sure I wouldn't have been able to. He had the stamina of a .... I don't know something? But, I was with him for a year and he begged for more. Ugh!
Nuff embarassing myself with BJ talk.... and oh what was my point anyway? I was saying sex styles/preferences. I have never liked being on top. Never really felt good to me. There was one guy I was with that preferred this, fine. I did it with him but it was only okay, did nothing for me. But, I do like most other positions and I am very open to trying new things. I also like rough sex.... Ha, ha... I can hear Goofball laughing! But, its true expect with him so far, I just can't seem to want to have it too rough or hard or wild. I honestly like the way it is with him and I hate it to change, but it will and that's okay because it already has a little bit and it just got better so I am hoping for more of that getting more comfortable with each other to try new things and then maybe I will step out of my "holding back" mode that I'm in and let him see a little more of that side of me......
I can't believe I'm posting all this. I am just waiting for the emails and comments now.... I can see all the people coming here now because they did a search for "sex" and found me. That is another reason I haven't posted this before.
Well hope you were educated. Maybe more than you wanted!! Enjoy HMSF!!
I am the star.
This looked fun. So I thought I would do it. Coool.
You are The Star
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised
The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Walking a fine line
...... So the kids are back (of course) and K has been talking to me a lot about her dad and his soon-to-be.... While she likes her future step-brother and sister, she is not that thrilled with the step-mom or her dad. See, back in the fall sometime, he promised her he would not get remarried. He said he respected her too much to do that. She told me about it at the time and I tried to say (without putting her dad down too much) that I couldn't make a promise like that because it was unrealistic. I did say that I had no intentions of getting remarried anytime soon but I would hope that someday I would find someone that I loved that much and that I hoped she would want the same for me. We have talked about this a lot actually.
Well she told me that her dad broke that promise and now she cannot trust him. She did say she could trust me. I said are you saying that just to make me happy and because you think that is what I want to her? She looked me right in the face and said no, its the truth. So as we talked, I tried really hard, really hard! not to bad mouth her dad but also to discuss the issue and give respect or validation to her feelings. She can feel that distrust and I explained that was one of the many reasons that we got a divorce because he just couldn't keep promises to me. But, I did say, that does not mean you cannot learn to trust him again and that she really should give him another chance or two or three. You are his daughter and always will be. He loves you and he doesn't mean to do this to hurt you. While he shouldn't have promised you he wouldn't get remarried, he is and you need to give them a chance.
I'm so sad for her that she has found all this out about him. I had really hoped that he would not do this to them (hurt them) but as much as I want to hate him, I am happy that he has found someone that he loves enough to want to marry. He has always had a real knack for hurting the kids with his actions. He does a lot of things without thinking it out. You just do not make unrealistic promises to a child.... or anyone for that matter.
H is hurt by him too. He was sick yesterday and stayed home. He cleaned the whole house. Well it was pretty clean already but he just got all their stuff put away from being away and finished the dishes.... He has been different. Even 4 year old, L has been different. Quiet and won't talk much about the trip/visit. Today he started to say that he was getting a new brother (step-brother),but then stopped like he wasn't suppose to say it. I got him to talk about it and he smiled and sadly, he looked relieved to say something. I really hope the ex didn't tell them not to talk to me or something, or make it seem like it was suppose to be a big huge secret..... something.
When and if it is my turn to get remarried, especially if the kids are still young and living at home, I do not want to hurt them with it. I want them to give their true and honest blessing to me (I would love if the guy asked them for permission first before asking me). I will not be with someone that is going to disrespect my children and will know when things that are said should be kept private (K starting her period, not telling everyone in front of her!). And, being funny is one thing, but teasing in a mean and hurtful way will not be tolerated.
So I am walking that fine line between bad mouthing dad and biting my tongue, smiling and just nodding my head as I listen.
Well she told me that her dad broke that promise and now she cannot trust him. She did say she could trust me. I said are you saying that just to make me happy and because you think that is what I want to her? She looked me right in the face and said no, its the truth. So as we talked, I tried really hard, really hard! not to bad mouth her dad but also to discuss the issue and give respect or validation to her feelings. She can feel that distrust and I explained that was one of the many reasons that we got a divorce because he just couldn't keep promises to me. But, I did say, that does not mean you cannot learn to trust him again and that she really should give him another chance or two or three. You are his daughter and always will be. He loves you and he doesn't mean to do this to hurt you. While he shouldn't have promised you he wouldn't get remarried, he is and you need to give them a chance.
I'm so sad for her that she has found all this out about him. I had really hoped that he would not do this to them (hurt them) but as much as I want to hate him, I am happy that he has found someone that he loves enough to want to marry. He has always had a real knack for hurting the kids with his actions. He does a lot of things without thinking it out. You just do not make unrealistic promises to a child.... or anyone for that matter.
H is hurt by him too. He was sick yesterday and stayed home. He cleaned the whole house. Well it was pretty clean already but he just got all their stuff put away from being away and finished the dishes.... He has been different. Even 4 year old, L has been different. Quiet and won't talk much about the trip/visit. Today he started to say that he was getting a new brother (step-brother),but then stopped like he wasn't suppose to say it. I got him to talk about it and he smiled and sadly, he looked relieved to say something. I really hope the ex didn't tell them not to talk to me or something, or make it seem like it was suppose to be a big huge secret..... something.
When and if it is my turn to get remarried, especially if the kids are still young and living at home, I do not want to hurt them with it. I want them to give their true and honest blessing to me (I would love if the guy asked them for permission first before asking me). I will not be with someone that is going to disrespect my children and will know when things that are said should be kept private (K starting her period, not telling everyone in front of her!). And, being funny is one thing, but teasing in a mean and hurtful way will not be tolerated.
So I am walking that fine line between bad mouthing dad and biting my tongue, smiling and just nodding my head as I listen.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Kids are BACK!!
Nuff said! They missed me a lot. I missed them a lot!
Now we are heading to my parents for lunch, plus my nephew rode up with me to pick them up so I have to return him.
In other news, my poor baby girl. She does not like her dad with his girlfriend. She says he is weird when he is with her and that this girl is mean to her. Bitch! She better not be. It really could be a teenager perspective but I think there is some truth there. It may be a little inflated for my benefit but ya know whatever. Oh and that the ring he got her is really big. K was describing it! I about lost it.... lol! It sounds like the same style as the one he gave me. That would be sooo funny. He gave it to me years ago when I realized we would sometime in the future get a divorce. I knew I didn't love him anymore. I called it the guilt ring. I gave it back to him. What if he just took "my" ring and had hers made from it.
Oh well kids are hungry. Gotta go!
Now we are heading to my parents for lunch, plus my nephew rode up with me to pick them up so I have to return him.
In other news, my poor baby girl. She does not like her dad with his girlfriend. She says he is weird when he is with her and that this girl is mean to her. Bitch! She better not be. It really could be a teenager perspective but I think there is some truth there. It may be a little inflated for my benefit but ya know whatever. Oh and that the ring he got her is really big. K was describing it! I about lost it.... lol! It sounds like the same style as the one he gave me. That would be sooo funny. He gave it to me years ago when I realized we would sometime in the future get a divorce. I knew I didn't love him anymore. I called it the guilt ring. I gave it back to him. What if he just took "my" ring and had hers made from it.
Oh well kids are hungry. Gotta go!
Thursday, March 15, 2007
I want to blog but....
.... I don't seem to have as much time. I should! I don't have the kids. I don't have school. I have been busy at work but I don't normally bring work home (for many, many reasons). But, I think that with work being sooo busy, the last thing I want to do in the evening is be on the computer.
Anyway, I have been reading blogs but not replying. I have tons of blog entries in the works.
But, for now, just know that all is well and I am enjoying my break from the kiddos, enjoying being out of school.
More soon!
Anyway, I have been reading blogs but not replying. I have tons of blog entries in the works.
But, for now, just know that all is well and I am enjoying my break from the kiddos, enjoying being out of school.
More soon!
Monday, March 12, 2007
The ex is getting remarried
Not surprising but still a bit of a shock. I have been expecting this call for a while. He basically said that now that the kids have met her and her kids, it was time for them to get engaged. He did go on to say neither of them want to get married right now but in a few years. Yeah, right?
So how should one feel about this? I think what I feel is normal..... I am happy for him because she sounds like she really "gets him" and she has made some positive (yet weird to me) changes in him. But, on the other hand, this is someone I was with for 13 years and for him to move on so fast. Wow. Its a bit weird.
I still look to my Aunt A for the model of what a single mom should look like. I haven't talked about this yet but she is my idol! My hero in single motherhood. She took care of my cousin and waited until he was grown to find that special someone. Now I'm not saying I will wait that long but my kids come first, period. If I find someone and it just clicks and blah, blah, yadda, yadda.... well great but if not, I am willing to wait on the right time.
My point is I don't feel a rush or need to meet someone and get hitched just because he is. I'm a competitve soul but this is one thing I can deal with losing at. Why? because if I rush and it doesn't work then what do I have? Another divorce? Yep! Not doing that again. If (big if) I get remarried, I want it to be for love and nothing else. Not money, not a baby (like the first) or because I'm lonely.
It must be the right reason. Period.
So how should one feel about this? I think what I feel is normal..... I am happy for him because she sounds like she really "gets him" and she has made some positive (yet weird to me) changes in him. But, on the other hand, this is someone I was with for 13 years and for him to move on so fast. Wow. Its a bit weird.
I still look to my Aunt A for the model of what a single mom should look like. I haven't talked about this yet but she is my idol! My hero in single motherhood. She took care of my cousin and waited until he was grown to find that special someone. Now I'm not saying I will wait that long but my kids come first, period. If I find someone and it just clicks and blah, blah, yadda, yadda.... well great but if not, I am willing to wait on the right time.
My point is I don't feel a rush or need to meet someone and get hitched just because he is. I'm a competitve soul but this is one thing I can deal with losing at. Why? because if I rush and it doesn't work then what do I have? Another divorce? Yep! Not doing that again. If (big if) I get remarried, I want it to be for love and nothing else. Not money, not a baby (like the first) or because I'm lonely.
It must be the right reason. Period.
Day Three without the kids
Its a work day so that will keep me really busy. Actually should be a busy week! We have our Houston College Recruiting event to get ready for. I'm actually really excited though I might whine a little this week about being so busy..... but overall I love this stuff!
The race at Vegas yesterday did not go well for Dale Jr. Now I don't remember what place he finished in but it couldn't have been good. He was doing great all day, was in the top 10 most of the race. Around lap 14 there was a caution which means a lot of people will make pit stops..... but the track officials will usually keep the pit lane closed until all the cars cirlce back around. He didn't realize it was closed and went in..... There was another driver in front of him and he pitted too but that was because he had trouble with his car, that is the only reason they could pit when it is closed. There was yet another driver behind Dale but he realized at the last second that pit lane was closed and was able to get back on the track. Sooooo anyway, Dale had to move from 5th to last place. Yikes! With only a few laps to go, I'm sure he didn't gain too many places. And, to top it all off Jimmie Johnson won. Great driver but I'm not a fan.
Then I got to see Goofball last night and wow, just had a good time. No an awesome time. We played Burnout on Playstation 2..... I love that game! He also agreed to watch the video scrapbook that my parents' made for me when I turned 30 (4 yrs ago)...... I thought that was pretty darn cool of him to watch it. And, in between that was just hung out and talked. I don't know yet when I will get to see him again but I'm sure that we will find some time in the next couple of months.
Overall I have a smile on my face and I'm tired as hell but ready to get down to work!
Thanks, Goofball for a good evening. Can't wait until next time.
The race at Vegas yesterday did not go well for Dale Jr. Now I don't remember what place he finished in but it couldn't have been good. He was doing great all day, was in the top 10 most of the race. Around lap 14 there was a caution which means a lot of people will make pit stops..... but the track officials will usually keep the pit lane closed until all the cars cirlce back around. He didn't realize it was closed and went in..... There was another driver in front of him and he pitted too but that was because he had trouble with his car, that is the only reason they could pit when it is closed. There was yet another driver behind Dale but he realized at the last second that pit lane was closed and was able to get back on the track. Sooooo anyway, Dale had to move from 5th to last place. Yikes! With only a few laps to go, I'm sure he didn't gain too many places. And, to top it all off Jimmie Johnson won. Great driver but I'm not a fan.
Then I got to see Goofball last night and wow, just had a good time. No an awesome time. We played Burnout on Playstation 2..... I love that game! He also agreed to watch the video scrapbook that my parents' made for me when I turned 30 (4 yrs ago)...... I thought that was pretty darn cool of him to watch it. And, in between that was just hung out and talked. I don't know yet when I will get to see him again but I'm sure that we will find some time in the next couple of months.
Overall I have a smile on my face and I'm tired as hell but ready to get down to work!
Thanks, Goofball for a good evening. Can't wait until next time.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Day Two without the kids
Not that I am counting.... okay maybe a little. I love the break I am getting and I'm soo glad they get time with their dad but I am missing them like crazy.
So day one went great. I finally, finally found a comforter that I like, no love. It was on sale and got some sheets (which weren't originally on my list) for more than half off.... ($120 -> $40).
Then I got some new blinds for most of the windows. There are 3 main windows: Living room, K's bedroom and my bedroom. And, they all needed new blinds. I got the 2" Faux wood ones. The cat will have a MUCH harder time bending these all to hell.
Had an appt at the salon. Niiiice. Gotta love "me" time.
Went to the store, got just a small cart of stuff.
Came home and cleaned like crazy. Ate a nice dinner in bed while watching a movie (Little Miss Sunshine..... because I am that far behind on movies).
Today is shaping up like this. I'm about to head over to Target. Why? Vacuum cleaner. Mine broke. It was a second-hand one from my mom. If I don't find one fairly cheap though, I might just try to fix this one yet again.
Then dad will be over to help me with the blinds.
More cleaning.
NASCar is in Vegas, baby! Gotta watch at least part of the race, if not all of it.
Then get ready for my evening. What is this evening? Goofball. Nuff said.....
Hope everyone has a great Sunday..... and don't forget about the time change.
So day one went great. I finally, finally found a comforter that I like, no love. It was on sale and got some sheets (which weren't originally on my list) for more than half off.... ($120 -> $40).
Then I got some new blinds for most of the windows. There are 3 main windows: Living room, K's bedroom and my bedroom. And, they all needed new blinds. I got the 2" Faux wood ones. The cat will have a MUCH harder time bending these all to hell.
Had an appt at the salon. Niiiice. Gotta love "me" time.
Went to the store, got just a small cart of stuff.
Came home and cleaned like crazy. Ate a nice dinner in bed while watching a movie (Little Miss Sunshine..... because I am that far behind on movies).
Today is shaping up like this. I'm about to head over to Target. Why? Vacuum cleaner. Mine broke. It was a second-hand one from my mom. If I don't find one fairly cheap though, I might just try to fix this one yet again.
Then dad will be over to help me with the blinds.
More cleaning.
NASCar is in Vegas, baby! Gotta watch at least part of the race, if not all of it.
Then get ready for my evening. What is this evening? Goofball. Nuff said.....
Hope everyone has a great Sunday..... and don't forget about the time change.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Day one without kids
Today is day one. I have tons planned but yet I am sitting here blogging. Yeah I'm addicted, just a bit!
The drop off went fine. I didn't cry.... almost but didn't. I did find out that the ex is moving in with his girlfriend.... Niiice. Oh well. What I think is the funniest part, he was scared to tell me. He still thinks I'm evil. Whatever!
So I just had to share that K called. She started her period (for the record not her first). She didn't want to tell her dad so she asked me too. Bhahaha! That was a funny conversation. My poor baby. She is still really embarassed about getting it and this is the worst time for her to get it.
Well off to my day of shopping and cleaning and me time and whatever else I feel like doing!
The drop off went fine. I didn't cry.... almost but didn't. I did find out that the ex is moving in with his girlfriend.... Niiice. Oh well. What I think is the funniest part, he was scared to tell me. He still thinks I'm evil. Whatever!
So I just had to share that K called. She started her period (for the record not her first). She didn't want to tell her dad so she asked me too. Bhahaha! That was a funny conversation. My poor baby. She is still really embarassed about getting it and this is the worst time for her to get it.
Well off to my day of shopping and cleaning and me time and whatever else I feel like doing!
Pictures from the Kids' Point of View
Inspired by Mindy over at Mama Drama..... She is the Queen of Pictures! (Or at least to me.) and she was saying that when her son gets the camera, she just never knows what she will find.
So I thought....what the heck, I got tons of those! Sooooo I am posting random things my kids have taken pics of! No people, sorry but lots of other fun stuff.
L took this of the inside of a laundry basket.
K's slippers that look like shoes.
My parents' pool.
Close-up of H's shirt.
A superhero that wanted to keep his idenity private.
Zoe in the dryer.
Inside of a wagon.
A blurry pic of my niece at Halloween. BTW - My mom painted the side of her garage, like it?
And, lastly a sleeping Sebastian.
So I thought....what the heck, I got tons of those! Sooooo I am posting random things my kids have taken pics of! No people, sorry but lots of other fun stuff.
L took this of the inside of a laundry basket.
K's slippers that look like shoes.
My parents' pool.
Close-up of H's shirt.
A superhero that wanted to keep his idenity private.
Zoe in the dryer.
Inside of a wagon.
A blurry pic of my niece at Halloween. BTW - My mom painted the side of her garage, like it?
And, lastly a sleeping Sebastian.
Friday, March 09, 2007
The start of Spring Break
So the kids' start Spring Break after school today and (whohoo) are going to stay with their dad for the week (and two weekends). I will take them halfway to him this evening and then we will meet up the following Sunday (before the race).
I'm looking forward to it. The boys are looking forward to it. I'm sure the ex is. But, K not so much. The first reason is leaving her friends. She is at that age when friends are far more important than family. The other reason is that the ex plans to introduce the kids to his girlfriend (and I think her kids). Fine. But, K is freaking out about it. So I told her this:
"Give her a fair chance. Don't just judge her right off and if you have any thoughts that liking her would be betraying me. Don't worry. It is fine. You can like her if you want to."
I know she is worried about that and I just want her to know that it is okay. I plan to make sure they know I love them which I know they know. I tell them all the time to the point I get the eye rolls and "Mom! I know." to which I usually do a super mushy voice saying, "But I lovey you." They usually laugh a bit.
I know I am going to miss them like crazy but I am also really looking forward to some much needed alone time! And, ya know what is really sad, one of the things I am must looking forward to...... Cleaning my house. Yeah I'm getting old.
I'm looking forward to it. The boys are looking forward to it. I'm sure the ex is. But, K not so much. The first reason is leaving her friends. She is at that age when friends are far more important than family. The other reason is that the ex plans to introduce the kids to his girlfriend (and I think her kids). Fine. But, K is freaking out about it. So I told her this:
"Give her a fair chance. Don't just judge her right off and if you have any thoughts that liking her would be betraying me. Don't worry. It is fine. You can like her if you want to."
I know she is worried about that and I just want her to know that it is okay. I plan to make sure they know I love them which I know they know. I tell them all the time to the point I get the eye rolls and "Mom! I know." to which I usually do a super mushy voice saying, "But I lovey you." They usually laugh a bit.
I know I am going to miss them like crazy but I am also really looking forward to some much needed alone time! And, ya know what is really sad, one of the things I am must looking forward to...... Cleaning my house. Yeah I'm getting old.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
The cursed shipment
Tomorrow we have a College Recruiting Event at our California office. I have been trying to ship the "end of day, thanks for coming" gifts to our office out there. The first box lost. Thanks DHL! You Rock! Second box is now delayed somewhere and I just have this feeling.... a bad feeling that it is going to be lost too.
Don't ya just love days like this!? (hee, heee.... ) I can cry and get mad, or I can laugh.... well I decided to laugh!
Of course that doesn't get the gifts there but I am working on another plan.
Don't ya just love days like this!? (hee, heee.... ) I can cry and get mad, or I can laugh.... well I decided to laugh!
Of course that doesn't get the gifts there but I am working on another plan.
I don't like people - Part II
So back in January I wrote this. Now again, don't get me wrong, I am not like a crazy person talking under my breath about killing people.... but I do have issues. I will just smile politely and think "Idoit get a clue"
Today I went over to the caferteria at work. I was in line to get my food. (Chicken and veggies, yum). When it was my turn, I ordered and moved to the very end of the counter thingy, the "pick-up" part. The guy behind me should have stayed at the "order" part.... but instead stayed right with me like glue. "Hello moron, personal space. This is my bubble, get the f#$% out of it!" For the record, there was nobody behind him there was no reason for him to move forward or be soooo close to me. As it was he was yelling to people that were already sitting down. "Ah come on. Shut up and back the f$%^ up!"
I just took my food, smiled, paid and came running back to my quiet, empty office to hide!
I'm not having a good week with my whole anxiety being elevated. My anxiety level is near another breaking point and that really, really didn't help it at all. (I'm sure it is elevated because of taking the kids to the ex tomorrow but that's a whole other story.)
Oh well, what can I do? Nothing. It just gives me something fun to blog about!!!!
Okay honestly, I would love to write a book about depression, anxiety and mental health. I still believe there is a whole stigma (or maybe a different word... but what I mean is it is still fairly hush-hush, don't talk about it stuff) about mental health but so many more people than we realize suffer from it. People that on the outside look and act perfectly normal but are screaming on the inside. I do think with the whole blogging thing, more people are admitting to mental health problems but I still don't think there is enough awareness of it or how to fix it or signs you have a problem and on and on and on.....
I lost my point.... Oh yes..... I don't like people in my personal space or as my kids say "My bubble."
Today I went over to the caferteria at work. I was in line to get my food. (Chicken and veggies, yum). When it was my turn, I ordered and moved to the very end of the counter thingy, the "pick-up" part. The guy behind me should have stayed at the "order" part.... but instead stayed right with me like glue. "Hello moron, personal space. This is my bubble, get the f#$% out of it!" For the record, there was nobody behind him there was no reason for him to move forward or be soooo close to me. As it was he was yelling to people that were already sitting down. "Ah come on. Shut up and back the f$%^ up!"
I just took my food, smiled, paid and came running back to my quiet, empty office to hide!
I'm not having a good week with my whole anxiety being elevated. My anxiety level is near another breaking point and that really, really didn't help it at all. (I'm sure it is elevated because of taking the kids to the ex tomorrow but that's a whole other story.)
Oh well, what can I do? Nothing. It just gives me something fun to blog about!!!!
Okay honestly, I would love to write a book about depression, anxiety and mental health. I still believe there is a whole stigma (or maybe a different word... but what I mean is it is still fairly hush-hush, don't talk about it stuff) about mental health but so many more people than we realize suffer from it. People that on the outside look and act perfectly normal but are screaming on the inside. I do think with the whole blogging thing, more people are admitting to mental health problems but I still don't think there is enough awareness of it or how to fix it or signs you have a problem and on and on and on.....
I lost my point.... Oh yes..... I don't like people in my personal space or as my kids say "My bubble."
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
How timely....
So there are two radio stations that I like to listen to their morning shows. Both are located on the side of my blog under Websites I visit. The first is the Buzz and the Rod Ryan show! Love this show. He is a tell it like it is kind of guy. The other is on Mix 96.5 and is called the Sam Malone Morning Show. Sam is again a tell it like it is kind of guy. But they are very much different in that Rod is more edgy and Sam is more the guy next door.
So on Rod Ryan's show they were talking about things women do on first dates that don't get them a call back..... It was interesting and I don't believe I have ever done those on a first date. Like dominate the conversation, talk about past boyfriends/spouse (a mention maybe okay but not a whole thing about it), don't act too clingy/into him right then, don't get into "hot" topic or debate...... A caller mentioned something she likes to talk about (She likes sports, porn and video games). Rod said, "Don't try to be the cool chic. The dude will figure it out on his own if you are cool or not. Don't try to push it by making up scenarios to make yourself look cool."
This reminded me that I have been called a cool chic recently. However, yesterday I feel like I blew it. All my coolness was gone with one single email, or at least that is how I feel today. I may be overacting which is so not like me..... (evil laugh).... Okay I overact a little bit! So sue me!
Anyway, on Sam's show they were talking about emails you regret sending.... (See how these all go together!)..... Umm, hell yeah I regret sending emails. Now don't get me wrong I do try to live by the whole "No regret" thing. But I can admit that I make mistakes. I'm not perfect, never claimed to be and except in jest would never say I was perfect. So when mistakes are made all I can do is say "Damn that sucks." and just file it under "What the hell was I thinking" crossed referenced to "Lessons Learned."
What's the point of this? Yesterday for whatever reason I had a panic or anxiety attack. This scared me a bit because I don't know why it happened. I felt fine, a bit overwhelmed by work but I love it. I love the adrenaline of it...... but I just suddenly went into an attack. Prior to July 2005 I used to get them pretty darn regularly but once I took control of my life and made a decision to get a divorce.... I felt good, happy and the attacks were almost non-existent....
I reached out to many people yesterday just to take my mind off of the attack. My life is pretty darn good and so I don't need to vent or have someone solve something. I just needed a distraction and I got it so no big deal at all.... But, one of those I reached out to has a full plate (this is a bit of an underestimate but I can't think of a better way to say that) and I understand that. I truly do. I don't want this person to feel bad for anything. I have a million (okay not a million but a lot) of people I reach out to in times of need. Not everyone can reach back and that's cool that is why I surround myself with so many supportive people because someone is always there. (I talked for close to an hour with a friend in Boston and then IMed with one of my best ever friends dating back to high school. He can see right through me.)
So to all my friends, just thanks for being my friend. It is all give and take. Sometimes there is more taking, sometimes more giving.... It is the balance of the two over time that counts. I get enough to make me happy and I have no intentions of changing any of my friends. :)
Enjoy the day!
So on Rod Ryan's show they were talking about things women do on first dates that don't get them a call back..... It was interesting and I don't believe I have ever done those on a first date. Like dominate the conversation, talk about past boyfriends/spouse (a mention maybe okay but not a whole thing about it), don't act too clingy/into him right then, don't get into "hot" topic or debate...... A caller mentioned something she likes to talk about (She likes sports, porn and video games). Rod said, "Don't try to be the cool chic. The dude will figure it out on his own if you are cool or not. Don't try to push it by making up scenarios to make yourself look cool."
This reminded me that I have been called a cool chic recently. However, yesterday I feel like I blew it. All my coolness was gone with one single email, or at least that is how I feel today. I may be overacting which is so not like me..... (evil laugh).... Okay I overact a little bit! So sue me!
Anyway, on Sam's show they were talking about emails you regret sending.... (See how these all go together!)..... Umm, hell yeah I regret sending emails. Now don't get me wrong I do try to live by the whole "No regret" thing. But I can admit that I make mistakes. I'm not perfect, never claimed to be and except in jest would never say I was perfect. So when mistakes are made all I can do is say "Damn that sucks." and just file it under "What the hell was I thinking" crossed referenced to "Lessons Learned."
What's the point of this? Yesterday for whatever reason I had a panic or anxiety attack. This scared me a bit because I don't know why it happened. I felt fine, a bit overwhelmed by work but I love it. I love the adrenaline of it...... but I just suddenly went into an attack. Prior to July 2005 I used to get them pretty darn regularly but once I took control of my life and made a decision to get a divorce.... I felt good, happy and the attacks were almost non-existent....
I reached out to many people yesterday just to take my mind off of the attack. My life is pretty darn good and so I don't need to vent or have someone solve something. I just needed a distraction and I got it so no big deal at all.... But, one of those I reached out to has a full plate (this is a bit of an underestimate but I can't think of a better way to say that) and I understand that. I truly do. I don't want this person to feel bad for anything. I have a million (okay not a million but a lot) of people I reach out to in times of need. Not everyone can reach back and that's cool that is why I surround myself with so many supportive people because someone is always there. (I talked for close to an hour with a friend in Boston and then IMed with one of my best ever friends dating back to high school. He can see right through me.)
So to all my friends, just thanks for being my friend. It is all give and take. Sometimes there is more taking, sometimes more giving.... It is the balance of the two over time that counts. I get enough to make me happy and I have no intentions of changing any of my friends. :)
Enjoy the day!
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Panic Attack
I am embarassed to admit this but I'm having a panic attack or maybe more of an anxiety attack. I haven't had one in soooo long it is weird especially because I do not know what triggered this one.
I have no way to calm myself right now either so I'm reaching out to the blogging world as a way to try and calm myself. If I write maybe I will relax. Music is not working.....
I can't stop shaking and it is freaking me out! Do I "sound" panicked? I am!
Okay enough of my weirdness. I just had to put it out there in the hopes that I can calm down. I want to but my mind and body are not in sync. Maybe I should revisit the whole Paxil or Zoloft thing again.
UPDATE: Still a few hours later, I'm still feeling not quite right though the attack itself is over. Ya know that feeling after you have worked out like crazy and you can feel fatigue in all your muscles even your hair hurts? Yeah that is what this feels like and I feel like crying now that the actual attack part is over. I think it is a combination of craziness at work and the fact that I was talking with the ex via email all day (ironing out details for the kids' visit this weekend/next week). I am sure I will feel better soon.... I will head to the bath soon and enjoy the stress reliever foaming bath that my wonderful friend gave me for my Bday! So panic attack over..... body will be back to normal soon....
I have no way to calm myself right now either so I'm reaching out to the blogging world as a way to try and calm myself. If I write maybe I will relax. Music is not working.....
I can't stop shaking and it is freaking me out! Do I "sound" panicked? I am!
Okay enough of my weirdness. I just had to put it out there in the hopes that I can calm down. I want to but my mind and body are not in sync. Maybe I should revisit the whole Paxil or Zoloft thing again.
UPDATE: Still a few hours later, I'm still feeling not quite right though the attack itself is over. Ya know that feeling after you have worked out like crazy and you can feel fatigue in all your muscles even your hair hurts? Yeah that is what this feels like and I feel like crying now that the actual attack part is over. I think it is a combination of craziness at work and the fact that I was talking with the ex via email all day (ironing out details for the kids' visit this weekend/next week). I am sure I will feel better soon.... I will head to the bath soon and enjoy the stress reliever foaming bath that my wonderful friend gave me for my Bday! So panic attack over..... body will be back to normal soon....
Monday, March 05, 2007
My blog is worth .....
My blog is worth $1,693.62.
How much is your blog worth?
I have been going to this website for months to see if my blog is worth anything and each time it says $0.00.... Well finally, yes finally it is worth something.
No, no, sadly nobody sends me a check but it is just an "if" type of thing. I just need to figure out how to market myself better.
Click the ads! Visit some of the links! Post some comments for me! I love to get the feedback and hear your reactions to my words. And, please feel free to add to link to me....
The Big Green Monster....
.... and no not jealousy.
My 1995 Chevy Suburban who has been a thorn in my side since the ex and I decided to get a divorce and I had to give up my love (Navigator) and had to take this on as my vehicle....
Well since then it has cost me an arm and a leg. Hindsight being what it is, I should have dumped it this past summer but now I'm just in too deep to go back now. We are stuck together like glue for at least 6 more months.... but probably more.
So last night I drove out to see Goofball (Yay!) and on the way home, the Sub died. It had been sounding funny all day so I wasn't surprised. Thankfully it started up again. Then it did it again this morning on the way to drop L off at day care. Off to the shop we go. My mom to the rescue in her newer Suburban. She let's me take it to work.
The call came in later. Now don't ask me what it is..... I just said "How much? How long do you have to keep it this time?" Not terrible but not good either. Around $300 for the part and labor. I told them to go ahead with an oil change, et al because it was waaaaaay overdue and I was secretly thinking I might have killed my car for good.
Well during the test drive, they found that the transmission was not right. It would go straight to 2nd gear. (I knew it!!! I'm not crazy!) Thankfully this was covered service because they had just replaced the transmission for me a few months ago.
So I'm in a rental for a few days (they are paying for it).
Definitely a Monday type of thing to happen and on one of the worst Mondays too. Work is beyond busy and I am dropping balls left and right. April could not get here fast enough for me! :)
My 1995 Chevy Suburban who has been a thorn in my side since the ex and I decided to get a divorce and I had to give up my love (Navigator) and had to take this on as my vehicle....
Well since then it has cost me an arm and a leg. Hindsight being what it is, I should have dumped it this past summer but now I'm just in too deep to go back now. We are stuck together like glue for at least 6 more months.... but probably more.
So last night I drove out to see Goofball (Yay!) and on the way home, the Sub died. It had been sounding funny all day so I wasn't surprised. Thankfully it started up again. Then it did it again this morning on the way to drop L off at day care. Off to the shop we go. My mom to the rescue in her newer Suburban. She let's me take it to work.
The call came in later. Now don't ask me what it is..... I just said "How much? How long do you have to keep it this time?" Not terrible but not good either. Around $300 for the part and labor. I told them to go ahead with an oil change, et al because it was waaaaaay overdue and I was secretly thinking I might have killed my car for good.
Well during the test drive, they found that the transmission was not right. It would go straight to 2nd gear. (I knew it!!! I'm not crazy!) Thankfully this was covered service because they had just replaced the transmission for me a few months ago.
So I'm in a rental for a few days (they are paying for it).
Definitely a Monday type of thing to happen and on one of the worst Mondays too. Work is beyond busy and I am dropping balls left and right. April could not get here fast enough for me! :)
Sunday, March 04, 2007
The next few months....
Well tomorrow will start another busy workweek. I work in HR at a large Oil and Gas company. We smack dab in the middle of our Spring College Recruiting. This is huge for us and busy. The next three weeks at work will be maddening busy, just like the last two have been. But, then even after we get done with the Onsite Visits and getting offers out and tracking, tracking, tracking.... we will be gearing up for our Summer Interns. This is another huge part of my job. We have to plan the kick-off, activities and events plus the Intern end of summer presentations.
I love my job!!
So then personal life looks a bit like this for the next, I would guess 2 months or so.
This coming weekend, take the kids to their dad. We have agreed to start meeting halfway to do the "kid drop".
Hopefully the big schedule wheel of fortune will also land so that Goofball and I will get to see each other..... If not, this will probably be the last chance for me to see him for a while. No Fridays together this month, just as much my schedule as his. (April doesn't look much more promising)
So the weekend of March 9-11 should be a good weekend.
Then the next weekend, I have a family party at my cousin's, J, house. It is for me, our grandmother, another cousin and J's girlfriend. We are the March bdays.
Pick the kiddos up on Sunday.
Hopefully the next two weekends will be fairly quiet because I have to get ready for April.....
Of course there is Easter Weekend, then a cousin's wedding (other side of family), then a trip to Dallas to meet up with my awesome friends!!!, then a family reunion the next and then another cousin is getting married and then I think we are at mother's day. By then school is almost out! and the kiddos will be going to their dad's for most of the summer. But first they want to have an end of the year party (this is Party Central afterall).
But, ya know, during all this, the kiddos are signed up for Baseball (H) and Soccer (K & L). So I am sure there will be games on the weekends, practice during the week.
What did I get myself into! :)
Just kidding! I'm soooo not complaining. I like it, I love it!
Anyway, just sharing as I don't know if I will as much time to write but I definitely will try. I like having this outlet for my thoughts. It is my brain dumping ground for the most part.
I love my job!!
So then personal life looks a bit like this for the next, I would guess 2 months or so.
This coming weekend, take the kids to their dad. We have agreed to start meeting halfway to do the "kid drop".
Hopefully the big schedule wheel of fortune will also land so that Goofball and I will get to see each other..... If not, this will probably be the last chance for me to see him for a while. No Fridays together this month, just as much my schedule as his. (April doesn't look much more promising)
So the weekend of March 9-11 should be a good weekend.
Then the next weekend, I have a family party at my cousin's, J, house. It is for me, our grandmother, another cousin and J's girlfriend. We are the March bdays.
Pick the kiddos up on Sunday.
Hopefully the next two weekends will be fairly quiet because I have to get ready for April.....
Of course there is Easter Weekend, then a cousin's wedding (other side of family), then a trip to Dallas to meet up with my awesome friends!!!, then a family reunion the next and then another cousin is getting married and then I think we are at mother's day. By then school is almost out! and the kiddos will be going to their dad's for most of the summer. But first they want to have an end of the year party (this is Party Central afterall).
But, ya know, during all this, the kiddos are signed up for Baseball (H) and Soccer (K & L). So I am sure there will be games on the weekends, practice during the week.
What did I get myself into! :)
Just kidding! I'm soooo not complaining. I like it, I love it!
Anyway, just sharing as I don't know if I will as much time to write but I definitely will try. I like having this outlet for my thoughts. It is my brain dumping ground for the most part.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Imagini Visual DNA
I got this from Aimee over at GreebleMonkey (formerly Schloobie)
Go to this website to create your own!
Go to this website to create your own!
What a difference a year makes!
I have been thinking about this all day. (This might be part of my mood today)...
I blogged about this over the summer but just to recap.
This time last year the ex and I had plans to move back in together. We had not lived together in about 8-9 months. We were looking at houses because this one is just too small for us. We are people that need space. Anywho. For my birthday last year, we all took a trip to San Antonio. Neither the kiddos nor the ex had ever been out there so off we went.
Good weekend. I thought for sure things had turned and we might be able to make it work but not just because of that weekend, it was months and months of talking and listening. We were looking for a counselor, looking for a house. Well about mid-March things changed. His voice, his mannerisms, etc. I knew that was it, no turning back. We filed. I don't regret it for one minute. He moved to Dallas and we, of course, stayed here.
The days got easier, the feelings went away. I tend to be a very jealous person.... VERY jealous. So hearing about his life was hard. He had so much.... and while I had the kids, I didn't have help and they don't have him. But, even that is gone. I feel nothing.... Today I was listening to some random music, Nick Lachey's "I can't hate you anymore" came on. I guess I kind of feel like that. There have been bumps to get to this point. I haven't shared them all but the good news the bumps get smaller and farther apart.
The latest bump is that we don't talk on the phone anymore. For a while we would have regular chats, just as friends which I thought was great. But, something changed, and now we only talk via text messaging and email. That hurt for a second but ya know, I guess it is the right thing.
But, really, for me, I'm happy with my life. I cannot complain about anything.... well I could but why? I have a really great life. Great friends. My kids are wonderful!
I blogged about this over the summer but just to recap.
This time last year the ex and I had plans to move back in together. We had not lived together in about 8-9 months. We were looking at houses because this one is just too small for us. We are people that need space. Anywho. For my birthday last year, we all took a trip to San Antonio. Neither the kiddos nor the ex had ever been out there so off we went.
Good weekend. I thought for sure things had turned and we might be able to make it work but not just because of that weekend, it was months and months of talking and listening. We were looking for a counselor, looking for a house. Well about mid-March things changed. His voice, his mannerisms, etc. I knew that was it, no turning back. We filed. I don't regret it for one minute. He moved to Dallas and we, of course, stayed here.
The days got easier, the feelings went away. I tend to be a very jealous person.... VERY jealous. So hearing about his life was hard. He had so much.... and while I had the kids, I didn't have help and they don't have him. But, even that is gone. I feel nothing.... Today I was listening to some random music, Nick Lachey's "I can't hate you anymore" came on. I guess I kind of feel like that. There have been bumps to get to this point. I haven't shared them all but the good news the bumps get smaller and farther apart.
The latest bump is that we don't talk on the phone anymore. For a while we would have regular chats, just as friends which I thought was great. But, something changed, and now we only talk via text messaging and email. That hurt for a second but ya know, I guess it is the right thing.
But, really, for me, I'm happy with my life. I cannot complain about anything.... well I could but why? I have a really great life. Great friends. My kids are wonderful!
Friday, March 02, 2007
My fine is $380.60
Okay I stole this from Esmerelda.... No surprise there. I get a lot of good stuff from her. Anyway it is kind of fun! But, at the same time, I feel quite boring.
Just read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each offense and added up your total fine. When you are done, blog it. Title your post "My fine is $....."You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.
1. Smoked pot -- $10
2. Did acid -- $5
3. Ever had sex at church -- $25
4. Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40
5. Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25
6. Had sex for money -- $100
7. Ever had sex with the a Puerto Rican -- $20
8. Vandalized something -- $20
9. Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
10. Beat up someone -- $20
11. Been jumped -- $10
12. Crossed dressed -- $10
13. Given money to stripper -- $25
14. Been in love with a stripper -- $20
15. Kissed some one who's name you didn't know -- $0.10
16. Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
17. Ever drive drunk -- $20
18. Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
19. Used toys while having sex -- $30
20. Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
21. Went skinny dipping -- $5
22. Had sex in a pool -- $20
23. Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
24. Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
25. Cheated on your significant other -- $10
26. Masturbated -- $10
27. Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20
28. Done oral -- $5
29. Got oral -- $5
30. Done / got oral in a car while it was moving -- $25
31. Stole something -- $10
32. Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
33. Made a nasty home video -- $15
34. Had a threesome -- $50
35. Had sex in the wild -- $20
36. Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25
37. Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars -- $20
38. Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
39. Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 -- $25
40. Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50
41. Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
42. Went streaking -- $5
43. Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
44. Been arrested -- $5
45. Spent time in jail -- $15
46. Peed in the pool -- $0.50
47. Played spin the bottle -- $5
48. Done something you regret -- $20
49. Had sex with your best friend -- $20
50. Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25
51. Had anal sex -- $80
52. Lied to your mate -- $5
53. Lied to your mate a bout the sex being good -- $25
Tally it up and post it in comments...please!
Just read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each offense and added up your total fine. When you are done, blog it. Title your post "My fine is $....."You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.
1. Smoked pot -- $10
2. Did acid -- $5
3. Ever had sex at church -- $25
4. Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40
5. Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25
6. Had sex for money -- $100
7. Ever had sex with the a Puerto Rican -- $20
8. Vandalized something -- $20
9. Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
10. Beat up someone -- $20
11. Been jumped -- $10
12. Crossed dressed -- $10
13. Given money to stripper -- $25
14. Been in love with a stripper -- $20
15. Kissed some one who's name you didn't know -- $0.10
16. Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
17. Ever drive drunk -- $20
18. Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
19. Used toys while having sex -- $30
20. Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
21. Went skinny dipping -- $5
22. Had sex in a pool -- $20
23. Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
24. Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
25. Cheated on your significant other -- $10
26. Masturbated -- $10
27. Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20
28. Done oral -- $5
29. Got oral -- $5
30. Done / got oral in a car while it was moving -- $25
31. Stole something -- $10
32. Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
33. Made a nasty home video -- $15
34. Had a threesome -- $50
35. Had sex in the wild -- $20
36. Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25
37. Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars -- $20
38. Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
39. Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 -- $25
40. Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50
41. Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
42. Went streaking -- $5
43. Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
44. Been arrested -- $5
45. Spent time in jail -- $15
46. Peed in the pool -- $0.50
47. Played spin the bottle -- $5
48. Done something you regret -- $20
49. Had sex with your best friend -- $20
50. Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25
51. Had anal sex -- $80
52. Lied to your mate -- $5
53. Lied to your mate a bout the sex being good -- $25
Tally it up and post it in comments...please!
Happy Birthday to ME!!!!
Its my birthday!!
So not too much planned (Go visit a friend of mine and her cutie little boy, then go to lunch tomorrow with my folks). But, I wanted to share something a bit silly I did..... I bought some things from Old Navy for myself but not only did I buy these for myself for my birthday, I had them gift wrapped and wrote myself a card! Yep, that is what type of girl I am! It seems silly maybe but ya know, it makes it all really exciting.
So in honor of my Bday, I wanted to share a few things about this day!
This day in history:
1836 - Texas declared its independence from Mexico and an ad interim government was formed.
1861 - The U.S. Congress created the Territory of Nevada.
1866 - Excelsior Needle Company began making sewing machine needles.
1901 - The first telegraph company in Hawaii opened.
1908 - In Paris, Gabriel Lippmann introduced three-dimensional color photography at the Academy of Sciences.
1933 - The motion picture King Kong had its world premiere in New York.
1969 - In Toulouse, France, the supersonic transport Concorde made its first test flight. 1974 - Postage stamps jumped from 8 to 10 cents for first-class mail. 1984 - The first McDonald's franchise was closed. A new location was opened across the street from the old location in Des Plaines, IL.
1998 - Images from the American spacecraft Galileo indicated that the Jupiter moon Europa has a liquid ocean and a source of interior heat.
2004 - NASA announced that the Mars rover Opportunity had discovered evidence that water had existed on Mars in the past.
Birthdays
Sam Houston 1793 (which as a Texan, I find freakin' cool!)
Dr. Suess 1904
Desi Arnaz 1917
Jennifer Jones 1919
Doc Watson 1923
John Cullum 1930
Tom Wolfe 1931
Mikhail Gorbachev 1931
Al Waxman 1934
Doug Watkins 1934
Paul Dino 1939
Barbara Luna 1939
Jon Finch 1941
John Irving 1942
Lou Reed (Velvet Underground) 1942
Eddie Money 1949
Karen Carpenter (The Carpenters) 1950
Cassie Yates 1951
Laraine Newman 1952
Jay Osmond (The Osmond Brothers) 1955
Mark Evans (AC/DC) 1956
John Cowsill (The Cowsills) 1956
Kevin Curren 1958
Larry Stewart (Restless Heart) 1959
Jon Bon Jovi 1962
Casey (Jimmie's Chicken Shack) 1976
Heather McComb 1977
Chris Martin (Coldplay) 1977
Robert Iler 1985
So not too much planned (Go visit a friend of mine and her cutie little boy, then go to lunch tomorrow with my folks). But, I wanted to share something a bit silly I did..... I bought some things from Old Navy for myself but not only did I buy these for myself for my birthday, I had them gift wrapped and wrote myself a card! Yep, that is what type of girl I am! It seems silly maybe but ya know, it makes it all really exciting.
So in honor of my Bday, I wanted to share a few things about this day!
This day in history:
1836 - Texas declared its independence from Mexico and an ad interim government was formed.
1861 - The U.S. Congress created the Territory of Nevada.
1866 - Excelsior Needle Company began making sewing machine needles.
1901 - The first telegraph company in Hawaii opened.
1908 - In Paris, Gabriel Lippmann introduced three-dimensional color photography at the Academy of Sciences.
1933 - The motion picture King Kong had its world premiere in New York.
1969 - In Toulouse, France, the supersonic transport Concorde made its first test flight. 1974 - Postage stamps jumped from 8 to 10 cents for first-class mail. 1984 - The first McDonald's franchise was closed. A new location was opened across the street from the old location in Des Plaines, IL.
1998 - Images from the American spacecraft Galileo indicated that the Jupiter moon Europa has a liquid ocean and a source of interior heat.
2004 - NASA announced that the Mars rover Opportunity had discovered evidence that water had existed on Mars in the past.
Birthdays
Sam Houston 1793 (which as a Texan, I find freakin' cool!)
Dr. Suess 1904
Desi Arnaz 1917
Jennifer Jones 1919
Doc Watson 1923
John Cullum 1930
Tom Wolfe 1931
Mikhail Gorbachev 1931
Al Waxman 1934
Doug Watkins 1934
Paul Dino 1939
Barbara Luna 1939
Jon Finch 1941
John Irving 1942
Lou Reed (Velvet Underground) 1942
Eddie Money 1949
Karen Carpenter (The Carpenters) 1950
Cassie Yates 1951
Laraine Newman 1952
Jay Osmond (The Osmond Brothers) 1955
Mark Evans (AC/DC) 1956
John Cowsill (The Cowsills) 1956
Kevin Curren 1958
Larry Stewart (Restless Heart) 1959
Jon Bon Jovi 1962
Casey (Jimmie's Chicken Shack) 1976
Heather McComb 1977
Chris Martin (Coldplay) 1977
Robert Iler 1985
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Realistic, Optimistic, Pessimistic
I was going to say Realistic versus Optimistic versus Pessimistic but I think you can be Realistic and Optimistic and you can be Realistic and Pessimistic.
Why am I bringing this up? To be quite honest, I don't know. It has just been on my mind lately. Just some baggage and some current thinking and well just life in general.
I feel like I'm a very optimistic person... for the most part. I do think everyone can have a down in the dumps, mad at the world day, week or month BUT for the most part I try to see the good and try to have hope. I'm a glass is half full type of girlie!
But, I also think I'm realistic. I understand real life. Sometimes life is great. Sometimes life sucks. But, it is how you deal with life that matters. Am I right?
So I used to be married to a flat out pessimist. He could find very little good. But, he always said he was a realist, not pessimistic. Maybe but he still had a pessimistic side of realist.
Personally I think being a realistic, optimist is the best way to live. Not telling ya what to do out there but it just feels good!
Why am I bringing this up? To be quite honest, I don't know. It has just been on my mind lately. Just some baggage and some current thinking and well just life in general.
I feel like I'm a very optimistic person... for the most part. I do think everyone can have a down in the dumps, mad at the world day, week or month BUT for the most part I try to see the good and try to have hope. I'm a glass is half full type of girlie!
But, I also think I'm realistic. I understand real life. Sometimes life is great. Sometimes life sucks. But, it is how you deal with life that matters. Am I right?
So I used to be married to a flat out pessimist. He could find very little good. But, he always said he was a realist, not pessimistic. Maybe but he still had a pessimistic side of realist.
Personally I think being a realistic, optimist is the best way to live. Not telling ya what to do out there but it just feels good!
A Public Thank You
I wanted to send a public thank you to Goofball. Yeah, I know I thanked you via the phone and email yesterday but you just don't realize how much I do appreciate you taking the time out of your day to make me feel special.
Sooooo yesterday, I came home to a rather large bag. It was balloons with a teddy bear and a card. It was a congrats for completing school.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a big huge THANK YOU!!!!!!
Sooooo yesterday, I came home to a rather large bag. It was balloons with a teddy bear and a card. It was a congrats for completing school.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a big huge THANK YOU!!!!!!
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
Lines are just a suggestion
Today at work, a co-worker asked me what the red line down the middle of the steno pad was for. Honest to gosh, I don't know.... I thought it had something to do with short hand but honestly I don't know and never really paid much attention to the line or any lines for that matter (except when the kids' school list says wide-ruled only and all I can find is college ruled.... but that's something completely different!)
See I think lines are just a suggestion. Why should I be confined to just this little bitty space, when I want to be so big!!!! At least in my words, at least in how I feel, at least in how I want to live.....
It is so weird because if you know me, I am quiet but this I guess is just one of my many contradications. I am quiet and I am loud! Just honestly depends on my mood and who I am around. Most of the time, I think I am quiet. And, you may also remember I don't like to be the center of attention so does being big really describe my personality?
Well I think it can. I want to see things, everything I can! I want to experience things, everything I can! I don't want to be held back or told I can't. I want to express myself and in some ways I want to make a difference.
I just don't think staying in the lines fits my plan for me.... Do you?
See I think lines are just a suggestion. Why should I be confined to just this little bitty space, when I want to be so big!!!! At least in my words, at least in how I feel, at least in how I want to live.....
It is so weird because if you know me, I am quiet but this I guess is just one of my many contradications. I am quiet and I am loud! Just honestly depends on my mood and who I am around. Most of the time, I think I am quiet. And, you may also remember I don't like to be the center of attention so does being big really describe my personality?
Well I think it can. I want to see things, everything I can! I want to experience things, everything I can! I don't want to be held back or told I can't. I want to express myself and in some ways I want to make a difference.
I just don't think staying in the lines fits my plan for me.... Do you?
LAST DAY OF CLASS!!!!!!!!
I cannot believe I'm actually typing this! But, today is my last day of class!!!!
After just over 4 years, it is finally over! What am I going to do? Well no problem there, I have already started to fill my time with kid activities. They have been kind of on hold for so long so now it is their turn.
I won't have my final grade for about a week but I don't care! I'm done! Done! DONE!!!!
After just over 4 years, it is finally over! What am I going to do? Well no problem there, I have already started to fill my time with kid activities. They have been kind of on hold for so long so now it is their turn.
I won't have my final grade for about a week but I don't care! I'm done! Done! DONE!!!!
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Mr. Right vs. Mr. Right Now
Since becoming a single mom, I have connected with other single moms. At some point talk always lands on guys and dating. What I have noticed is that we seem to classify them by "Mr. Right" and "Mr. Right Now."
This does not mean that Mr. Right is the "one" but just that this is a person that we can see ourselves with long term or that this person has certain things we are looking for. If it works, it does. If not okay.
For Mr. Right Now, this is more a fling or someone that maybe is just fun but if it got serious, it would be over. This might also be someone that we just keep in the "friend" catergory.
We also seem to have a "list" of things we want in the other person. There may be "must-haves" and then there are "Optional" or "bonus" items. For the most part, my list has stayed the same since high school. I'm not going to list them here or at least not right now. But most of my list is personality and character of the person more than looks. For looks, my taste varies so much.... From Kevin James to Dale Jr to Chris Daughtery (from last season's American Idol)..... But, really bottom line for me is how you treat me, children and animals. But, the other thing that really matters is kissing. I love to kiss. I could just do this forever with the right person.
So anyway, that is all I had to say on that. There was no true point to this, just something I was thinking about after several conversations with some of my friends.
This does not mean that Mr. Right is the "one" but just that this is a person that we can see ourselves with long term or that this person has certain things we are looking for. If it works, it does. If not okay.
For Mr. Right Now, this is more a fling or someone that maybe is just fun but if it got serious, it would be over. This might also be someone that we just keep in the "friend" catergory.
We also seem to have a "list" of things we want in the other person. There may be "must-haves" and then there are "Optional" or "bonus" items. For the most part, my list has stayed the same since high school. I'm not going to list them here or at least not right now. But most of my list is personality and character of the person more than looks. For looks, my taste varies so much.... From Kevin James to Dale Jr to Chris Daughtery (from last season's American Idol)..... But, really bottom line for me is how you treat me, children and animals. But, the other thing that really matters is kissing. I love to kiss. I could just do this forever with the right person.
So anyway, that is all I had to say on that. There was no true point to this, just something I was thinking about after several conversations with some of my friends.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
NASCAR!!!!
Okay so it is Sunday again (okay I'm cheating and doing this on Saturday night!).
This means another race! This time the Auto Club 500 out at the California Speedway. I may end up missing a lot of this race because of plans I have tomorrow but we shall see. If I'm at my parents' house maybe I can talk them in to letting me watch it.
So I was checking out the NASCar website and saw that they had the commercials on there from the Daytona 500. My own personal opinion (could be a bit bias here) is that these were better than the batch from the Super Bowl this year which I normally like.
If you check out the commercials.... You have got to check out the Oreo Yum one. In fact, just check it out!!! It is soooo worth it. Page 2.
Oh and Dale Jr qualified 5th again. Let's just hope he has a better week. Finish this race without wrecking, Dale, please?
UPDATE: Okay Dale is out. Damn! Something is going on with engines out there because several of the top drivers are struggling. While others are doing really great. GO TONY!!!!!
This means another race! This time the Auto Club 500 out at the California Speedway. I may end up missing a lot of this race because of plans I have tomorrow but we shall see. If I'm at my parents' house maybe I can talk them in to letting me watch it.
So I was checking out the NASCar website and saw that they had the commercials on there from the Daytona 500. My own personal opinion (could be a bit bias here) is that these were better than the batch from the Super Bowl this year which I normally like.
If you check out the commercials.... You have got to check out the Oreo Yum one. In fact, just check it out!!! It is soooo worth it. Page 2.
Oh and Dale Jr qualified 5th again. Let's just hope he has a better week. Finish this race without wrecking, Dale, please?
UPDATE: Okay Dale is out. Damn! Something is going on with engines out there because several of the top drivers are struggling. While others are doing really great. GO TONY!!!!!
Friday, February 23, 2007
Weight Issues
I guess this is the topic of the day. From the MILF checkin that many of my friends do to people that just have it on their minds.
So I guess I will jump on the bandwagon and share a few of my things.
First and foremost, I will not for one second post my weight, but let's just say.... yeah I need to lose big time.
Secondly, I am very educated in this area. I know what to eat, how to eat, how much to eat and that I should be eating far more meals in a day than I do. I know how I should be exercises, etc.... It used to be part of my job to stay in shape. And, except for some flabby spots from having the kiddos, I did really well. I ran 4 miles everyday. A few times a week I even did step aerobics. I also used to take my huskies running too...... or maybe I was just pulled. Never really checked to see if my feet were touching the ground. I used to bowl. I used to play volleyball. I used to just be a lot more active person.
And, here is my issue..... I was never, ever accepted for who I was and how I was. Well here let me back up a step more. After having K at age 21, I was able to fit right back into to my size 7 jeans. Still looked pretty damn good too! Then I had H at age 22 (19mths later).... I gained so much. He was so big for me. It settled mostly in the flab of my stomach, bigger hips and thighs. But, this is when I started really working out. Up to this point, no problem.
The ex started putting me down. Telling me he was going to divorce me for gaining weight. Oh really? F$%^ you.... So my weight bounced a round but for the most part I stayed around a size 10. Not too bad!
Well on one of my runs, I stepped funny and hurt my foot really bad. I didn't realize it until the next day. I tried to run but it was so bad. I got home from that day-after run and I could barely get my shoe off. Military doctors aren't always great..... but nobody really could figure out exactly what was wrong. Even now if I walk a lot, it will hurt that bad again so though I have tried to run in the years since, I can't or I will not be mobile for days after. I miss running so much! I tried everything. New shoes, different surfaces.... everything I could think of. Even a treadmill doesn't work..... but to me that's not the same. I love to run outside. Hot, cold, rain, snow! Love it! Anyway......
Well I got out of the Navy and got an 8-5. No opportunities with commuting and my work schedule and now his new work schedule. I couldn't seem to fit my work out in. I tried but it was harder than being in the Navy when I was granted time during my work day to do it.
So I slowly got bigger.... size 12, size 14..... this is where I stayed most of the time (now too)..... Well at some point I got pg again.... got huge again! Huge, huge! Well that was it. My stomach is a mess now. Oh well!
Anywho, I have lost a lot of weight over the years and done great things but I was still told the most horrible things. A person that is suppose to be in love with you should not say those things to you. Period. And please if someone is actually trying as hard as the can. Working out, doing the whole lifestyle changing diets, etc..... do not tell them they are ugly and do not tell them they are fat. They know it. They feel bad about it. They really want to change but life happens.
So if you are wondering. I am happy as is. I love me!!! I would love to lose weight NOW. But it took me a long time to get like this and I am slowly working on it. It is on my mind every freakin' day. I do think about what I eat even when I eat something "bad" for me. I do think about the exercise that I can do. And, as a small milestone for the week, I did wear a smaller size of dress pants to work this week. This is probably my true size but I have been wearing ones that are a tiny bit larger. But, hey good is good!
And, yeah if you were also wondering, I almost don't want to lose the weight right now because if someone doesn't like me, than too f$%^ bad! This is who I am. And, when the time is right, that person will love me and accept me as is and than who knows!?
That's me! Happy as a duck. :)
So I guess I will jump on the bandwagon and share a few of my things.
First and foremost, I will not for one second post my weight, but let's just say.... yeah I need to lose big time.
Secondly, I am very educated in this area. I know what to eat, how to eat, how much to eat and that I should be eating far more meals in a day than I do. I know how I should be exercises, etc.... It used to be part of my job to stay in shape. And, except for some flabby spots from having the kiddos, I did really well. I ran 4 miles everyday. A few times a week I even did step aerobics. I also used to take my huskies running too...... or maybe I was just pulled. Never really checked to see if my feet were touching the ground. I used to bowl. I used to play volleyball. I used to just be a lot more active person.
And, here is my issue..... I was never, ever accepted for who I was and how I was. Well here let me back up a step more. After having K at age 21, I was able to fit right back into to my size 7 jeans. Still looked pretty damn good too! Then I had H at age 22 (19mths later).... I gained so much. He was so big for me. It settled mostly in the flab of my stomach, bigger hips and thighs. But, this is when I started really working out. Up to this point, no problem.
The ex started putting me down. Telling me he was going to divorce me for gaining weight. Oh really? F$%^ you.... So my weight bounced a round but for the most part I stayed around a size 10. Not too bad!
Well on one of my runs, I stepped funny and hurt my foot really bad. I didn't realize it until the next day. I tried to run but it was so bad. I got home from that day-after run and I could barely get my shoe off. Military doctors aren't always great..... but nobody really could figure out exactly what was wrong. Even now if I walk a lot, it will hurt that bad again so though I have tried to run in the years since, I can't or I will not be mobile for days after. I miss running so much! I tried everything. New shoes, different surfaces.... everything I could think of. Even a treadmill doesn't work..... but to me that's not the same. I love to run outside. Hot, cold, rain, snow! Love it! Anyway......
Well I got out of the Navy and got an 8-5. No opportunities with commuting and my work schedule and now his new work schedule. I couldn't seem to fit my work out in. I tried but it was harder than being in the Navy when I was granted time during my work day to do it.
So I slowly got bigger.... size 12, size 14..... this is where I stayed most of the time (now too)..... Well at some point I got pg again.... got huge again! Huge, huge! Well that was it. My stomach is a mess now. Oh well!
Anywho, I have lost a lot of weight over the years and done great things but I was still told the most horrible things. A person that is suppose to be in love with you should not say those things to you. Period. And please if someone is actually trying as hard as the can. Working out, doing the whole lifestyle changing diets, etc..... do not tell them they are ugly and do not tell them they are fat. They know it. They feel bad about it. They really want to change but life happens.
So if you are wondering. I am happy as is. I love me!!! I would love to lose weight NOW. But it took me a long time to get like this and I am slowly working on it. It is on my mind every freakin' day. I do think about what I eat even when I eat something "bad" for me. I do think about the exercise that I can do. And, as a small milestone for the week, I did wear a smaller size of dress pants to work this week. This is probably my true size but I have been wearing ones that are a tiny bit larger. But, hey good is good!
And, yeah if you were also wondering, I almost don't want to lose the weight right now because if someone doesn't like me, than too f$%^ bad! This is who I am. And, when the time is right, that person will love me and accept me as is and than who knows!?
That's me! Happy as a duck. :)
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Gotta get out of my head!
Because I can't hear the other voices anymore... just mine. (Just kidding! or am I?)
I am overthinking everything, stressing about everything and I just need to chill the F#$% out!
At least I received my tax return so now I can FINALLY get caught up on bills. I can go buy the kids some clothes that they need for school and maybe, just maybe I can get a few new things for work. But, here still, I need to be very careful, I will get behind again quickly if I'm not careful. But, honestly, we all need just a few items.
So current stressors:
1. SCHOOL - only a few, just a few more days!
2. Kids - Its mostly over the clothes. They need them, I haven't had money... problem is now solved!
3. The ex - Can't do much about this but I chewed his butt out about not seeing his kids more.... so it might help. But, it is probably more of a band-aid, didn't resolve the true problem.
4. WORK! - We are soooo busy and I'm still waiting to hear about a permanent position. Ugh!
5. Car - It is falling apart slowly.... I need a new(er) one. Gotta wait on the job situation.
***(update below)6. Something I don't really want to talk about but I'm sure it will be fine..... If its not..... I can't even let myself think that because that is what is TRULY driving me crazy.
7. My house - Its a mess. Its just a plain wreck. Not much to do about it until the weekend.
So mostly petty stuff. All of it is either something I will deal with or it will go away so no bigs.
But, ya know, sometimes ya just gotta lay it all out there to make yourself feel better.
And, if that doesn't do it, have fun with the kids. We were blowing bubbles...... but not outside! Nope, right in the house. Second night in a row too. My kids think I'm so cool, okay well sometimes.
UPDATE: #6 is no longer a problem so that is just another stressor that can be checked off the list! Whoohoooo! TGIF!!!!!
I am overthinking everything, stressing about everything and I just need to chill the F#$% out!
At least I received my tax return so now I can FINALLY get caught up on bills. I can go buy the kids some clothes that they need for school and maybe, just maybe I can get a few new things for work. But, here still, I need to be very careful, I will get behind again quickly if I'm not careful. But, honestly, we all need just a few items.
So current stressors:
1. SCHOOL - only a few, just a few more days!
2. Kids - Its mostly over the clothes. They need them, I haven't had money... problem is now solved!
3. The ex - Can't do much about this but I chewed his butt out about not seeing his kids more.... so it might help. But, it is probably more of a band-aid, didn't resolve the true problem.
4. WORK! - We are soooo busy and I'm still waiting to hear about a permanent position. Ugh!
5. Car - It is falling apart slowly.... I need a new(er) one. Gotta wait on the job situation.
***(update below)6. Something I don't really want to talk about but I'm sure it will be fine..... If its not..... I can't even let myself think that because that is what is TRULY driving me crazy.
7. My house - Its a mess. Its just a plain wreck. Not much to do about it until the weekend.
So mostly petty stuff. All of it is either something I will deal with or it will go away so no bigs.
But, ya know, sometimes ya just gotta lay it all out there to make yourself feel better.
And, if that doesn't do it, have fun with the kids. We were blowing bubbles...... but not outside! Nope, right in the house. Second night in a row too. My kids think I'm so cool, okay well sometimes.
UPDATE: #6 is no longer a problem so that is just another stressor that can be checked off the list! Whoohoooo! TGIF!!!!!
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Bumper Sticker - Quote of the Day
I am posting this one especially for some.....
Sex is like a pizza. When its good, its very good. When its bad, its still really good!
And, I'm just going to add that if he could some how combine the two or have them in the same day.... I bet he would be in heaven. :)
Sex is like a pizza. When its good, its very good. When its bad, its still really good!
And, I'm just going to add that if he could some how combine the two or have them in the same day.... I bet he would be in heaven. :)
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
When life hands you lemons.....
I think I had this ine on my dating profile... when I had one. But, nobody would know where I got it or why I say that. But, when I hear this I think of this.....
1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
2. At least 15 people in this world love in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. (I still don't get this one! but I do like the idea of being loved!)
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
And always remember..... when life hands you lemons, ask for tequila and salt and call me over!
Okay so this was just an email chain once upon on a time. And, yeah the end is just funny and if you know me, you would know tequila and I probably wouldn't mix well. I think it just means to celebrate what you do have rather than dwell on the bad things.
Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you today. I read this everyday when I'm at work. It is posted in my office, currently it is hanging out with some Mardi Gras beads so it looks festive!
1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
2. At least 15 people in this world love in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. (I still don't get this one! but I do like the idea of being loved!)
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
And always remember..... when life hands you lemons, ask for tequila and salt and call me over!
Okay so this was just an email chain once upon on a time. And, yeah the end is just funny and if you know me, you would know tequila and I probably wouldn't mix well. I think it just means to celebrate what you do have rather than dwell on the bad things.
Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you today. I read this everyday when I'm at work. It is posted in my office, currently it is hanging out with some Mardi Gras beads so it looks festive!
Monday, February 19, 2007
6 Odd things about me
Tagged by Esmerelda to do 6 odd things about me. I have been thinking about this for a few hours now.... It actually took some thinking about I think I have picked the best odd things. Enjoy!
1. My favorite part of boot camp was going in the gas chamber. Yes really. They march us into a room where we are actually wearing gas masks. They start the gas and then make us take the masks off!
2. When I was 4, I cut my finger off by pulling a table saw over on myself. They were able to put it back on....
3. Until now, I haven't dated a guy with brown eyes. I have dated roughly 30-ish guys. 2 with green eyes and 1 with gray but the rest were blue.
4. I was in the Navy for 8 years and except for visiting my best friend on her ship, I was never on a ship.
5. I was in Girl Scouts until I graduated high school. I was a good cookie pusher!
6. When I'm in the car, I get bored.... so I play a game with myself. Here is how it goes. I try to make words out of license plates, well really what ever pops in my head first..... Today I saw one that was ### - TYL..... So I don't do anything with the numbers but the letters I said "Thank you letter."
So those are my 6. Now, guess what? Tag you're it!!!! You now have to do 6 of your own.
Thanks Es, that was actually kind of fun!
1. My favorite part of boot camp was going in the gas chamber. Yes really. They march us into a room where we are actually wearing gas masks. They start the gas and then make us take the masks off!
2. When I was 4, I cut my finger off by pulling a table saw over on myself. They were able to put it back on....
3. Until now, I haven't dated a guy with brown eyes. I have dated roughly 30-ish guys. 2 with green eyes and 1 with gray but the rest were blue.
4. I was in the Navy for 8 years and except for visiting my best friend on her ship, I was never on a ship.
5. I was in Girl Scouts until I graduated high school. I was a good cookie pusher!
6. When I'm in the car, I get bored.... so I play a game with myself. Here is how it goes. I try to make words out of license plates, well really what ever pops in my head first..... Today I saw one that was ### - TYL..... So I don't do anything with the numbers but the letters I said "Thank you letter."
So those are my 6. Now, guess what? Tag you're it!!!! You now have to do 6 of your own.
Thanks Es, that was actually kind of fun!
Celebrate the day
Yesterday I was having a crappy-a$$ day! I even went to sleep frustrated.....
But, today is a new day and I tried to wake up with a smile and a new attitude. I was told once that we will never get this day back. There will be only one Feb 19, 2007 so I need to make the best of it. The weather looks amazing. My children are happy and healthy. I have a lot to be thankful for!
I hope that anyone reading this will try to do one thing today to make yourself happy but not only yourself, but do a random act of kindness today. Just something as simple as holding a door for a stranger. Greeting everyone with a "Hello" and a smile.
You just never know what that person has going on in their life's that they can't share with others. (and, before you ask, I'm fine! Just money and school stress.... as always! both will be better soon.)
But, today is a new day and I tried to wake up with a smile and a new attitude. I was told once that we will never get this day back. There will be only one Feb 19, 2007 so I need to make the best of it. The weather looks amazing. My children are happy and healthy. I have a lot to be thankful for!
I hope that anyone reading this will try to do one thing today to make yourself happy but not only yourself, but do a random act of kindness today. Just something as simple as holding a door for a stranger. Greeting everyone with a "Hello" and a smile.
You just never know what that person has going on in their life's that they can't share with others. (and, before you ask, I'm fine! Just money and school stress.... as always! both will be better soon.)
Sunday, February 18, 2007
DAYTONA 500
Today is the DAYTONA 500!!!! This is just the biggest race of the year!
I have been trying to decide who I think will win.... and honestly, I don't care! As long its a good race!
I'm sooooo glad it is race season again!!!! Whoohooo.
UPDATE: The race is nearly finished. Most of the drivers that I would like to have seen win are out. Most recently Dale Jr, my fave all time driver. Tony Stewart is out. Even the Nextel Cup winner for 2006, Jimmie Johnson is out. And, so many more. The race is now red flagged, which means they will stop until they clear the track of the debris from the most current wreck that took Dale Jr out. At this point, I am cheering Mark Martin to win! He is a veteran of the sport and has been driving amazingly well. So once they green flag the race, it will be 3 laps to go.
FINAL UPDATE: Kevin Harvick won. Mark Martin second. Damn! There was a wreck just before the final turn..... Kevin won just by a tiny bit. He became the driver in place of Dale Sr. when he passed away Feb 18, 2001.
Next week at California Speedway.
I have been trying to decide who I think will win.... and honestly, I don't care! As long its a good race!
I'm sooooo glad it is race season again!!!! Whoohooo.
UPDATE: The race is nearly finished. Most of the drivers that I would like to have seen win are out. Most recently Dale Jr, my fave all time driver. Tony Stewart is out. Even the Nextel Cup winner for 2006, Jimmie Johnson is out. And, so many more. The race is now red flagged, which means they will stop until they clear the track of the debris from the most current wreck that took Dale Jr out. At this point, I am cheering Mark Martin to win! He is a veteran of the sport and has been driving amazingly well. So once they green flag the race, it will be 3 laps to go.
FINAL UPDATE: Kevin Harvick won. Mark Martin second. Damn! There was a wreck just before the final turn..... Kevin won just by a tiny bit. He became the driver in place of Dale Sr. when he passed away Feb 18, 2001.
Next week at California Speedway.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Girls Rule and Boys Drool
A new Nick show is on right now called the Naked Brothers Band. The current episode is about one of the main characters, Nat Wolfe, having a crush on a girl that is part of their band, Rosalina. He is trying to figure out how to get her attention. He mentions to her, "Remember that night in Chicago when you kissed me?" She says that wasn't a real kiss it was just on the cheek, it doesn't count. There is a whole theme around this. She goes around and starts kissing all the boys on the check. One of the other boys says, "Why is she doing that?" Nat says, "She is proving a point." "What point?" "That girls rule and boys drool."
This brings me to another thought. My Big Fat Greek Wedding! Maria, the mom, is telling her daughter, Toula, about men and women. "Men are the head and women are the neck. The head thinks it is in charge but the neck tells the head where to look." (Or something like that) Basically just means that women are in control though they make the man think he is.
Just a follow up to a recent conversation I had. No true point, just some thoughts on why girls rule and boys drool! And, why even though us women want men to think they are in charge and making decision..... We are really in control! :)
Or maybe I'm just full of it.... Afterall, I am about to get my BS!
This brings me to another thought. My Big Fat Greek Wedding! Maria, the mom, is telling her daughter, Toula, about men and women. "Men are the head and women are the neck. The head thinks it is in charge but the neck tells the head where to look." (Or something like that) Basically just means that women are in control though they make the man think he is.
Just a follow up to a recent conversation I had. No true point, just some thoughts on why girls rule and boys drool! And, why even though us women want men to think they are in charge and making decision..... We are really in control! :)
Or maybe I'm just full of it.... Afterall, I am about to get my BS!
Friday, February 16, 2007
Hot Monkey Sex Friday
So I keep wanting to post in celebration of Fridays as Esmeralda does.....at Soon to be just me. Each week I either forget or last week I was going to post some very personal stuff about myself but chickened out!
This week I am not only going to post in celebration but I got to celebrate it as well! (But that's all I'm saying!!!! No deets!)
Today was a good day for me! It was a Friday off, which means I get to sleep in, spend a little extra time with the kids in the morning before they head off to school. I get to go to the store (Target and Petsmart today) without the "I wants" of the children. It also means that I got to see Goofball. (maybe that's why I'm still smiling even though L just wrote all over the wall and K has her BFF over and there is all kinds of crazy girl stuff going on. Giggling and squealing and the cell phones!)
First while I was out shopping a good friend of mine called. I'm so glad to be back in touch with her!!! And, so amazingly happy for her. She has the cutest baby! He was in the background just making all kinds of happy baby sounds!
So then met Goofball for lunch and just general hanging out.... After lunch, I picked up L at day care and took him to speech. After that, we grabbed some drinks and a snack and headed over to the park! A little chilly but not too bad a day at all. We blew bubbles, rolled down a hill (seriously!) and I learned my little baby can do the monkey bars.... without help! He is 4.... er 4 1/2! When did he get so grown.
Wrapped up with taking the kids out for dinner and then ice cream. Oh and a phone call from Goofball just to say Hi.
So to all, I hope you had a good day and if you didn't, that's okay. The sun will come out tomorrow.....
This week I am not only going to post in celebration but I got to celebrate it as well! (But that's all I'm saying!!!! No deets!)
Today was a good day for me! It was a Friday off, which means I get to sleep in, spend a little extra time with the kids in the morning before they head off to school. I get to go to the store (Target and Petsmart today) without the "I wants" of the children. It also means that I got to see Goofball. (maybe that's why I'm still smiling even though L just wrote all over the wall and K has her BFF over and there is all kinds of crazy girl stuff going on. Giggling and squealing and the cell phones!)
First while I was out shopping a good friend of mine called. I'm so glad to be back in touch with her!!! And, so amazingly happy for her. She has the cutest baby! He was in the background just making all kinds of happy baby sounds!
So then met Goofball for lunch and just general hanging out.... After lunch, I picked up L at day care and took him to speech. After that, we grabbed some drinks and a snack and headed over to the park! A little chilly but not too bad a day at all. We blew bubbles, rolled down a hill (seriously!) and I learned my little baby can do the monkey bars.... without help! He is 4.... er 4 1/2! When did he get so grown.
Wrapped up with taking the kids out for dinner and then ice cream. Oh and a phone call from Goofball just to say Hi.
So to all, I hope you had a good day and if you didn't, that's okay. The sun will come out tomorrow.....
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Quote of the Day
Normally when I do the quote of the day, I will just give you the quote and not say anything but OMG! this one is just sooo perfect for me from the past year-ish. I say it all the time, "Why did I waste so much time being unhappy?" It wasn't until I made the decision to get a divorce, that I truly realized/felt what happiness was again.
Enjoy the quote. I really hope it helps someone out there!!!!
Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there cause you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. Then one day you feel something else, something that feels so unfamiliar. Then you realize you are happy!
Enjoy the quote. I really hope it helps someone out there!!!!
Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there cause you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. Then one day you feel something else, something that feels so unfamiliar. Then you realize you are happy!
Valentine's Day
I’m not a big fan of Valentine’s Day. I think it was created to sell greeting cards, like a few other holidays that we celebrate…..
I think celebrating love and relationships/friendship is GREAT, but do we really need a separate day for this? Shouldn’t it be something you do everyday? Do we really want to make single people feel like they are almost not worthy because they ARE single? That they must be in a relationship to be happy? Ya know, its all about couples.....
I know, just speaking of my marriage, had we put love first and celebrated it more often, things might have been different. Maybe not, but that was really my one complaint in my marriage. I didn’t feel like he was into me, like I meant anything to him, he didn’t make me feel like I was an important part of his life.
It is from this lesson that I have grown though. I try to make sure that I tell people “I value you. It means a lot having you in my life.” People aren’t mind readers (okay some give the illusion of mind reading) so you have to tell them and not just tell them but show them! I have said it before and I will surely say it again, Actions Speak Louder than WORDS! Words are great because it just gives confirmation of the actions but actions, baby, actions are the key. Anybody can give lip service, but not everyone can actually do the action. Walk the walk AND talk the talk. Not one or the other but both!
So I just give this advice to anyone reading, celebrate your relationships and friendships everyday. Make those people in your life, no matter how big or a small a role they play, know you value them. Use your actions AND words.
Happy Valentine’s Day, all.
I think celebrating love and relationships/friendship is GREAT, but do we really need a separate day for this? Shouldn’t it be something you do everyday? Do we really want to make single people feel like they are almost not worthy because they ARE single? That they must be in a relationship to be happy? Ya know, its all about couples.....
I know, just speaking of my marriage, had we put love first and celebrated it more often, things might have been different. Maybe not, but that was really my one complaint in my marriage. I didn’t feel like he was into me, like I meant anything to him, he didn’t make me feel like I was an important part of his life.
It is from this lesson that I have grown though. I try to make sure that I tell people “I value you. It means a lot having you in my life.” People aren’t mind readers (okay some give the illusion of mind reading) so you have to tell them and not just tell them but show them! I have said it before and I will surely say it again, Actions Speak Louder than WORDS! Words are great because it just gives confirmation of the actions but actions, baby, actions are the key. Anybody can give lip service, but not everyone can actually do the action. Walk the walk AND talk the talk. Not one or the other but both!
So I just give this advice to anyone reading, celebrate your relationships and friendships everyday. Make those people in your life, no matter how big or a small a role they play, know you value them. Use your actions AND words.
Happy Valentine’s Day, all.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Randomness
Stealing this from Esmeralda. But, I am deleting the last two questions about who will respond. I just did this for fun so don’t care if you reply or not, just hope you enjoy reading about me.
Not sure if I will do any type of follow-up on things but if you want to know, ask! I would be happy to answer questions.
Copy and Paste.Put an X in front of all the things you have done.Remove the X from the things you have not.
This is for your entire life:
( ) Smoked a cigarette
(x) Drank so much you threw up
( ) Crashed a friend's car
( ) Stolen a car
(x) Been in love
(x) Been dumped
(x) Been laid off/fired
() Been in a fist fight
( ) Been shot at
( ) Been stabbed
(x) Snuck out of your parent's house
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) Gone on a blind date
() Skipped school
() Seen someone die
() Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Been lost
(x) Been on the opposite side of the country
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like dying
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Recently colored with crayons
() Sang karaoke
() Paid for a meal with only coins
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't...
(x) Made prank phone calls
() Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) Danced in the rain
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about or love
(x) Blown bubbles
() Made a bonfire on the beach
() Crashed a party
(x) Gone roller-skating
() Ice-skating.
1. Do you have any nicknames? EJ, Eri (like Airy), Mommy Erica
2. What is your favorite drink? Dr Pepper
3. Tattoos? No
4. Any piercing? Two in each ear.
5. How much do you love your job? Stretching arms way out to sides and saying, “This much….”
6. Favorite vacation spot? Texas Hill Country
7. Ever been to Africa ? No, would love, love, LOVE too
8. Ever steal any traffic signs? No
9. Ever been in a car accident? Yes
10. How many doors does your car have? 6
11. Salad dressing? Italian or Ranch
12 Favorite number? 9
13. Favorite holiday? The one that celebrates me! Ha, just kidding. I love Thanksgiving.
14. Favorite food? Mexican
15. Favorite Day of the week? Anyone that I get to see Goofball on.
16. Favorite brand of body soap? Dove
17. Favorite Tooth Paste? Crest, I guess?
18. Favorite smell? Anything clean and fresh
19. What do you do to relax? Color or play with play-doh or play video games or scream.
20. Message to friends/family reading this? Take Risks. You only live once.
21. How do you see yourself in 10 years? Wow, I have no idea. Happy, I hope.
22. What do you do when you are bored? Sleep
23. What’s the farthest you will send this? Space the final frontier.
Not sure if I will do any type of follow-up on things but if you want to know, ask! I would be happy to answer questions.
Copy and Paste.Put an X in front of all the things you have done.Remove the X from the things you have not.
This is for your entire life:
( ) Smoked a cigarette
(x) Drank so much you threw up
( ) Crashed a friend's car
( ) Stolen a car
(x) Been in love
(x) Been dumped
(x) Been laid off/fired
() Been in a fist fight
( ) Been shot at
( ) Been stabbed
(x) Snuck out of your parent's house
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) Gone on a blind date
() Skipped school
() Seen someone die
() Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Been lost
(x) Been on the opposite side of the country
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like dying
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Recently colored with crayons
() Sang karaoke
() Paid for a meal with only coins
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't...
(x) Made prank phone calls
() Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) Danced in the rain
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about or love
(x) Blown bubbles
() Made a bonfire on the beach
() Crashed a party
(x) Gone roller-skating
() Ice-skating.
1. Do you have any nicknames? EJ, Eri (like Airy), Mommy Erica
2. What is your favorite drink? Dr Pepper
3. Tattoos? No
4. Any piercing? Two in each ear.
5. How much do you love your job? Stretching arms way out to sides and saying, “This much….”
6. Favorite vacation spot? Texas Hill Country
7. Ever been to Africa ? No, would love, love, LOVE too
8. Ever steal any traffic signs? No
9. Ever been in a car accident? Yes
10. How many doors does your car have? 6
11. Salad dressing? Italian or Ranch
12 Favorite number? 9
13. Favorite holiday? The one that celebrates me! Ha, just kidding. I love Thanksgiving.
14. Favorite food? Mexican
15. Favorite Day of the week? Anyone that I get to see Goofball on.
16. Favorite brand of body soap? Dove
17. Favorite Tooth Paste? Crest, I guess?
18. Favorite smell? Anything clean and fresh
19. What do you do to relax? Color or play with play-doh or play video games or scream.
20. Message to friends/family reading this? Take Risks. You only live once.
21. How do you see yourself in 10 years? Wow, I have no idea. Happy, I hope.
22. What do you do when you are bored? Sleep
23. What’s the farthest you will send this? Space the final frontier.
Monday, February 12, 2007
The Weekend Update
Well I am sure everyone is on the edge of their seats waiting for the big weekend update... Right? Oh come on, throw me a bone here. Say, "Yes we have been waiting all weekend to know how it went!" Much better. :)
So the ex got here mid-day Saturday and immediately took the kids out! I sat in silence for a bit and then got the heck out of here! Did some running around (bought Vodka for Sunday Night) and then came home for the race.
Sunday woke up, hopped in the car and took a ride down to the beach. It was awesome! It was really windy and the water was choppy. There was almost no one around. I just drove down the beach a bit and parked.... Sat with my eyes closed just breathing in the air and listening to the waves and the birds. Aaahhhh. I was feeling really relaxed. Recharged. I was also able to make a lot of notes for future blog entries!
Headed home after that to pack up. Had a hotel room for the night and a date with Goofball. Kissed the babies and head on my way.
Had a few hours before Goofball would get there. So chilled with some Lemonade and Vodka, and watched TV. By the time he got there, I was pretty giggly. Amazing, amazing night. Thankfully I didn't get all sad when it was time to say good-bye. 1. Because I will see him again on Friday (barring any schedule problems/changes). 2. I was about to puke my guts out. Niiiice.
So the weekend is over and I'm exhausted but smiling ear to ear.
A few things I did realize this weekend:
Well first the obvious and I actually knew it but still..... Vodka and Smirnoff Ice should not be drunk in the same night.
The next thing is that I do not have not one feeling for the ex anymore. The last time I saw him there was still some hurt and jealousy, though it was just a tiny bit. This time.... nothing. Cooooool!
So there you have it. Great weekend. Mom is recharged and ready for the little monsters! I love them babies.
So the ex got here mid-day Saturday and immediately took the kids out! I sat in silence for a bit and then got the heck out of here! Did some running around (bought Vodka for Sunday Night) and then came home for the race.
Sunday woke up, hopped in the car and took a ride down to the beach. It was awesome! It was really windy and the water was choppy. There was almost no one around. I just drove down the beach a bit and parked.... Sat with my eyes closed just breathing in the air and listening to the waves and the birds. Aaahhhh. I was feeling really relaxed. Recharged. I was also able to make a lot of notes for future blog entries!
Headed home after that to pack up. Had a hotel room for the night and a date with Goofball. Kissed the babies and head on my way.
Had a few hours before Goofball would get there. So chilled with some Lemonade and Vodka, and watched TV. By the time he got there, I was pretty giggly. Amazing, amazing night. Thankfully I didn't get all sad when it was time to say good-bye. 1. Because I will see him again on Friday (barring any schedule problems/changes). 2. I was about to puke my guts out. Niiiice.
So the weekend is over and I'm exhausted but smiling ear to ear.
A few things I did realize this weekend:
Well first the obvious and I actually knew it but still..... Vodka and Smirnoff Ice should not be drunk in the same night.
The next thing is that I do not have not one feeling for the ex anymore. The last time I saw him there was still some hurt and jealousy, though it was just a tiny bit. This time.... nothing. Cooooool!
So there you have it. Great weekend. Mom is recharged and ready for the little monsters! I love them babies.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
"Boogity, Boogity, Boogity! Let's go racin' boys!"
This phrase was heard again tonight as NASCar kicked up its season with the Budweiser Shootout! (It just started!)
Boogity, Boogity, Boogity is the catch phrase of Darrell Waltrip one of the retired drivers turned announcer! I love him. Miss his racing but he is an awesome announcer. Fun, fun, fun.
So my boy is moving and groovin'. He really sounds more motivated for this year so I'm hoping for a good year for him.
Just had to make the announcement that NASCar is back!
Whoooohoooo! Go Dale Jr!
Boogity, Boogity, Boogity is the catch phrase of Darrell Waltrip one of the retired drivers turned announcer! I love him. Miss his racing but he is an awesome announcer. Fun, fun, fun.
So my boy is moving and groovin'. He really sounds more motivated for this year so I'm hoping for a good year for him.
Just had to make the announcement that NASCar is back!
Whoooohoooo! Go Dale Jr!
Break day!
The Ex is coming today!!! Whooohooo. This means I get a break! I can just hop in the car and take off. I'm tagging him in when he gets here and I'm out! Plus I get to get out with Goofball tomorrow night. And, that is probably the bestestestest part about the ex coming!
Though it does mean my space is going to be invaded for a few days. This part kind of creeps me out. I feel like I have to "hide" stuff. My computer especially. My Yahoo Messanger opens automatically, though signs in invisible so nobody would know but STILL!!!!! What about the "surfin" history? Do I want him to see that? What about all my favorites, will he look through my list just to see where I go? I'm not saying he will snoop, he normally isn't that type but if its r.i.g.h.t there, would he look? And, it isn't like I'm wrong or I owe him a damn thing but its my life now and I don't want him to know or be a part of it.
Plus I'm sure he will make comments about my house being messy or the cats or a million other petty shit that he really doesn't have to worry about because he left, he made a choice so he will just have to fucking live with how I live.
But, ya know, as always the good of the situation far out weighs the bad!!!! When he does come and the kids ask for something, I say "See your Dad..." or "Its daddy time. Go ask/tell him." I still have to be here because I have school and no laptop, otherwise I would soooo not be here! I'm guessing next time he comes I will be able to just up and go since I only..... 2 wks and 2 days left of schoooooooooool!
I have plans. Lots of plans. The two things I am looking forward to is going for one of my long drives and of course, like I said in the beginning, getting to Goofball tomorrow night.
Have a great weekend y'all!
Though it does mean my space is going to be invaded for a few days. This part kind of creeps me out. I feel like I have to "hide" stuff. My computer especially. My Yahoo Messanger opens automatically, though signs in invisible so nobody would know but STILL!!!!! What about the "surfin" history? Do I want him to see that? What about all my favorites, will he look through my list just to see where I go? I'm not saying he will snoop, he normally isn't that type but if its r.i.g.h.t there, would he look? And, it isn't like I'm wrong or I owe him a damn thing but its my life now and I don't want him to know or be a part of it.
Plus I'm sure he will make comments about my house being messy or the cats or a million other petty shit that he really doesn't have to worry about because he left, he made a choice so he will just have to fucking live with how I live.
But, ya know, as always the good of the situation far out weighs the bad!!!! When he does come and the kids ask for something, I say "See your Dad..." or "Its daddy time. Go ask/tell him." I still have to be here because I have school and no laptop, otherwise I would soooo not be here! I'm guessing next time he comes I will be able to just up and go since I only..... 2 wks and 2 days left of schoooooooooool!
I have plans. Lots of plans. The two things I am looking forward to is going for one of my long drives and of course, like I said in the beginning, getting to Goofball tomorrow night.
Have a great weekend y'all!
Friday, February 09, 2007
I want cake!
Today I didn't bring my lunch. Okay let's be honest, I almost never actually bring my lunch. Our office has a cafeteria in it. So I usually end up over there because they have a pretty large variety but it is starting to get boring and well gross.
So today, I got some baked fish, green beans and broccoli. Healthy, right? Well it might have been healthy but it was not good. The fish was okay. It had some kind of lemon seasoning on it, fine. But, the green beans were way under cooked. They may have washed them and then set them out. I don't think they even warmed them. The broccoli was overcooked and just gross!
In my way of thinking, since I tried to make healthy choices at lunch but it backfired and was gross..... I want cake!
What do you mean it doesn't work that way? Damn! Oh well..... I tried.
So today, I got some baked fish, green beans and broccoli. Healthy, right? Well it might have been healthy but it was not good. The fish was okay. It had some kind of lemon seasoning on it, fine. But, the green beans were way under cooked. They may have washed them and then set them out. I don't think they even warmed them. The broccoli was overcooked and just gross!
In my way of thinking, since I tried to make healthy choices at lunch but it backfired and was gross..... I want cake!
What do you mean it doesn't work that way? Damn! Oh well..... I tried.
Center of Attention
Due to the Questions/Answers that Esmeralda posted, there has been a small discussion around women being the center of attention. So over the last few days I have been thinking about it.
Now, I’m not typically the center of attention type. I don’t like a fuss made over me. I don’t like to be in the spotlight. I mean there are times when this is okay, like when I finish school. I want to be the center of attention with my family because this has been such a large chunk of my time so hey let’s celebrate it! But, like I said, I really don’t like the spotlight.
But, I do like to be made to feel special and important by the man in my life. So yeah in a way I want this person to make me the center of his attentions and not because I necessarily want it or ask for it or expect it but because he wants to give it to me. Wants to let me know I’m just that important or special. And, how?….. Well pretty much everything I posted here but I will explain a bit more.
I want to be the center of attention in a much more passive way, than “the spotlight is on me.” So say we are out with friends, maybe in honor of a friend’s birthday or something that I wouldn’t be the center of attention for. However, my guy would maybe hold my hand and just give it a little squeeze to let me know we are “connected” in a way. Almost like saying “Hi. I’m here, thinking about you.” Or maybe he is across the room talking to other people, I’m talking to people, he catches my eye and just smiles…. Again saying “Thinking about you. Cant’ wait until we are on the same side of the room.”
And I’m not expecting someone to remember everything about me, but if he remembers little special things about me, like what I like to drink or if I mention a book, song, movie, TV show that I like…. Maybe he makes reference of it or if the song is on the radio, he turns it up just a tiny bit before I even realize it’s on. He would just show me that he was not just hearing me but really listening.
So basically I am saying that I want to be the center of his attention but not the world’s. And, just in small but meaningful ways that make me smile when nobody is around. It keeps those butterflies dancing around my stomach at the thought of seeing him.
And, really I think that is what most ladies want. Right ladies?
Edit: I wanted to add that if a man did all this for me, he would be repaid more than he could ever imagine. It is a give and take situation.
Now, I’m not typically the center of attention type. I don’t like a fuss made over me. I don’t like to be in the spotlight. I mean there are times when this is okay, like when I finish school. I want to be the center of attention with my family because this has been such a large chunk of my time so hey let’s celebrate it! But, like I said, I really don’t like the spotlight.
But, I do like to be made to feel special and important by the man in my life. So yeah in a way I want this person to make me the center of his attentions and not because I necessarily want it or ask for it or expect it but because he wants to give it to me. Wants to let me know I’m just that important or special. And, how?….. Well pretty much everything I posted here but I will explain a bit more.
I want to be the center of attention in a much more passive way, than “the spotlight is on me.” So say we are out with friends, maybe in honor of a friend’s birthday or something that I wouldn’t be the center of attention for. However, my guy would maybe hold my hand and just give it a little squeeze to let me know we are “connected” in a way. Almost like saying “Hi. I’m here, thinking about you.” Or maybe he is across the room talking to other people, I’m talking to people, he catches my eye and just smiles…. Again saying “Thinking about you. Cant’ wait until we are on the same side of the room.”
And I’m not expecting someone to remember everything about me, but if he remembers little special things about me, like what I like to drink or if I mention a book, song, movie, TV show that I like…. Maybe he makes reference of it or if the song is on the radio, he turns it up just a tiny bit before I even realize it’s on. He would just show me that he was not just hearing me but really listening.
So basically I am saying that I want to be the center of his attention but not the world’s. And, just in small but meaningful ways that make me smile when nobody is around. It keeps those butterflies dancing around my stomach at the thought of seeing him.
And, really I think that is what most ladies want. Right ladies?
Edit: I wanted to add that if a man did all this for me, he would be repaid more than he could ever imagine. It is a give and take situation.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Confession of a single mom of three
I have been feeling like a bad mom lately. I feel like a lot of the times I’m just there but not really there for my kids The other night (and last night) L was so whiny and I just had it and snapped! I didn’t yell but I definitely was not nice either. Then all night K kept asking me to look at the video game she was playing. Again, I just finally snapped at her. “Why do I have to look every 5 seconds? I have no idea how to even play that one so I have no idea what I’m looking at!” She said, “Gee I just don’t know where I got my drama from?” and points a finger at me. Niiiice.
Please don’t get me wrong. Anyone that truly knows me knows I love my kids. They are really my life. I would be so lost if I didn’t have them. However, I have just been feeling the strain lately. Very little help with them, except for when I’m at work and they are at school, I’m always with them. The dad has little “in person” contact with them. He is coming this weekend but hasn’t been here since Christmas (22nd- mid morning on the 25th). Before that it was before Thanksgiving and before that it was Labor Day weekend. So you could say about every 6-8 wks he makes his appearance. Does the fun dad stuff and then goes home to his bachelor lifestyle that frankly I think he enjoys. He just tells me otherwise to make himself sound better. Whatever!
And, if you have been reading my blog for a while, you know I go to school fulltime, online but it really is a big commitment of my time. I’m almost done, just a few more weeks. And, I recently had an unexpected break from school. That one week was soooo nice. I actually felt good about my role as mom but now just two and a half weeks later, I’m back to that horrible feeling.
I have been in school for over 4 years like this. Thankfully for 2 years of that, I was a stay-at home mom and could commit more time to the kids because I wasn’t at a job for 10-11 hours (including commute) everyday.
So my confession is said with this in mind: I’m worn out. I’m at the end of my rope. I really need a break and to recharge. Plus I think we don’t let moms just vent! (or dads). We just say they have to love these people without being able to say they can’t do it everyday!
Confessions:
Sometimes I don’t want to be the mom.
Sometimes I’m not even sure why I became a mom.
There I said it! And ya know what, it feels pretty damn good! Still love those kiddos though.
Please don’t get me wrong. Anyone that truly knows me knows I love my kids. They are really my life. I would be so lost if I didn’t have them. However, I have just been feeling the strain lately. Very little help with them, except for when I’m at work and they are at school, I’m always with them. The dad has little “in person” contact with them. He is coming this weekend but hasn’t been here since Christmas (22nd- mid morning on the 25th). Before that it was before Thanksgiving and before that it was Labor Day weekend. So you could say about every 6-8 wks he makes his appearance. Does the fun dad stuff and then goes home to his bachelor lifestyle that frankly I think he enjoys. He just tells me otherwise to make himself sound better. Whatever!
And, if you have been reading my blog for a while, you know I go to school fulltime, online but it really is a big commitment of my time. I’m almost done, just a few more weeks. And, I recently had an unexpected break from school. That one week was soooo nice. I actually felt good about my role as mom but now just two and a half weeks later, I’m back to that horrible feeling.
I have been in school for over 4 years like this. Thankfully for 2 years of that, I was a stay-at home mom and could commit more time to the kids because I wasn’t at a job for 10-11 hours (including commute) everyday.
So my confession is said with this in mind: I’m worn out. I’m at the end of my rope. I really need a break and to recharge. Plus I think we don’t let moms just vent! (or dads). We just say they have to love these people without being able to say they can’t do it everyday!
Confessions:
Sometimes I don’t want to be the mom.
Sometimes I’m not even sure why I became a mom.
There I said it! And ya know what, it feels pretty damn good! Still love those kiddos though.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Questions-Answers
Esmeralda over at Soon to be just me posted these questions today inspired by Over Heard in the ladies room.... She asked that we all anwer them so ....
My answers....
Favorite article of clothing (to wear or take off)? Pajamas! I would live in them if I could. I prefer an Old Navy Perfect Fit Tee with some type of pajama pants.
Fashion trend you would never be caught dead in? I am so fashion stupid that I have no idea how to answer this.
Most embarrassing date moment? I’m sure, I’m sure there is something!
Name one celebrity that would be your perfect boyfriend? I’m with Esmeralda on this one. Someone funny so I would go with Kevin James. He is a cutie too. If not someone funny, I would have to say Dale Jr!!!!!! Boy is hot! Or maybe Ty Pennington…. He builds, is a huge dork and he is hot! but, really, funny would be better than Hot... Hot fades, personality is there forever.
What would you consider a guilty pleasure for you? This might sound silly but hopping in the car, driving to the beach and then along to coast with the music up! Now that is definitely something I enjoy and yeah, I feel the tiniest bit guilty about it.
Biggest turnoff? Stupidity. If I can’t hold a conversation with you or if you can’t even get the simplest ideas/thoughts…. Well then just move along babe. And, I’m not expecting someone to remember everything about me but remember something!
Best date? Let’s see. Best date? I would have to say it was in September 2006…. Going to the zoo and walking around the park. Fun and the company was great too.
What do you sleep in? Well I would love to sleep naked again but I have to wait until the kids are much older or better yet gone. Until then I love my pajamas!
Favorite pair of shoes? I have several but my fave work ones are a pair of short heeled brown-ish colored pumps.
What do you like best about blogging? I love having a place to dump all my random thoughts and I can sort out my brain. I also love reading other’s blogs and “meeting” new people.
My answers....
Favorite article of clothing (to wear or take off)? Pajamas! I would live in them if I could. I prefer an Old Navy Perfect Fit Tee with some type of pajama pants.
Fashion trend you would never be caught dead in? I am so fashion stupid that I have no idea how to answer this.
Most embarrassing date moment? I’m sure, I’m sure there is something!
Name one celebrity that would be your perfect boyfriend? I’m with Esmeralda on this one. Someone funny so I would go with Kevin James. He is a cutie too. If not someone funny, I would have to say Dale Jr!!!!!! Boy is hot! Or maybe Ty Pennington…. He builds, is a huge dork and he is hot! but, really, funny would be better than Hot... Hot fades, personality is there forever.
What would you consider a guilty pleasure for you? This might sound silly but hopping in the car, driving to the beach and then along to coast with the music up! Now that is definitely something I enjoy and yeah, I feel the tiniest bit guilty about it.
Biggest turnoff? Stupidity. If I can’t hold a conversation with you or if you can’t even get the simplest ideas/thoughts…. Well then just move along babe. And, I’m not expecting someone to remember everything about me but remember something!
Best date? Let’s see. Best date? I would have to say it was in September 2006…. Going to the zoo and walking around the park. Fun and the company was great too.
What do you sleep in? Well I would love to sleep naked again but I have to wait until the kids are much older or better yet gone. Until then I love my pajamas!
Favorite pair of shoes? I have several but my fave work ones are a pair of short heeled brown-ish colored pumps.
What do you like best about blogging? I love having a place to dump all my random thoughts and I can sort out my brain. I also love reading other’s blogs and “meeting” new people.
Quote of the Day
There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there is a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
Catching fireflies
There are few things that I have truly going for me!
One, I am finally in the place I have needed to be for YEARS! Divorced. Also, hey I live in Texas, what could be better than living in your hometown/state. Oh and HAPPY! Did I mention that one?
Two, my kids. I love those little spoiled brats more than I could even imagine possible. They are spoiled, they are brats but they are mine!
Three, I have a job, though this is also something negative too since it is just a temp job.
Four, almost done with school. But, also another source of heartburn.
Five, I have GREAT friends! Both in real life and online. I would be lost with out them.
Six, Goofball. I have met this person that makes me laugh and that I just really am enjoying getting to know.
Past those things… everything else is a flat out mess! Chaos, chaos, chaos! House, car, job, school, finances…. All of it just crazy. Heck I'm not even that great of a mom.... Good but not great (read that blog entry later).
You know how people will often mention how we juggle things. Everything is a ball and we juggle them.... Well I imagine all these little fireflies and I’m trying to catch them. Say each thing like house, car, kids are represented by a firefly and I have to catch them and put them in a jar. Here is how I feel..... When I catch one, I put it in the jar. Then go after another, catch it, put it in the jar but I wasn’t careful enough and let the first one out. And the fireflies are everywhere so I’m chasing one but then see another is closer, so go after it….. and it just continues!
I won’t really go into toooo much details about all the chaos I feel though because I really do hate to complain. I truly do have a good life and sometimes I just need a reminder of that!
One, I am finally in the place I have needed to be for YEARS! Divorced. Also, hey I live in Texas, what could be better than living in your hometown/state. Oh and HAPPY! Did I mention that one?
Two, my kids. I love those little spoiled brats more than I could even imagine possible. They are spoiled, they are brats but they are mine!
Three, I have a job, though this is also something negative too since it is just a temp job.
Four, almost done with school. But, also another source of heartburn.
Five, I have GREAT friends! Both in real life and online. I would be lost with out them.
Six, Goofball. I have met this person that makes me laugh and that I just really am enjoying getting to know.
Past those things… everything else is a flat out mess! Chaos, chaos, chaos! House, car, job, school, finances…. All of it just crazy. Heck I'm not even that great of a mom.... Good but not great (read that blog entry later).
You know how people will often mention how we juggle things. Everything is a ball and we juggle them.... Well I imagine all these little fireflies and I’m trying to catch them. Say each thing like house, car, kids are represented by a firefly and I have to catch them and put them in a jar. Here is how I feel..... When I catch one, I put it in the jar. Then go after another, catch it, put it in the jar but I wasn’t careful enough and let the first one out. And the fireflies are everywhere so I’m chasing one but then see another is closer, so go after it….. and it just continues!
I won’t really go into toooo much details about all the chaos I feel though because I really do hate to complain. I truly do have a good life and sometimes I just need a reminder of that!
Monday, February 05, 2007
Watch out for flying pigs....
.... My children are all asleep and it is just barely 8:30! This does not happen, ever!
My two June babies (K & L) are night owls. L is still little so I can sometimes trick him into sleeping but K will be up much later than even I am awake. Typically I head to bed around 10:00.... asleep anywhere between 11 - 12:30, depends on the night. Now, some nights I do get to sleep earlier I think from exhaustion.
Speaking of sleeping it reminds me, I have been having very vivid dreams lately. The kind that, while not scary exactly, leave you shaking and confused. I have been waking up more and more at night. Dazed and confused, wondering what woke me up and then remembering my dream. Was it real? Was it is a dream? I almost want to ask people, "Did I talk to you last night?" It is weird.
Anyway, homework is done, house is actually clean, kids are asleep..... so what should mom do?? Ummm, ENJOY THE QUIET!!!!!
My two June babies (K & L) are night owls. L is still little so I can sometimes trick him into sleeping but K will be up much later than even I am awake. Typically I head to bed around 10:00.... asleep anywhere between 11 - 12:30, depends on the night. Now, some nights I do get to sleep earlier I think from exhaustion.
Speaking of sleeping it reminds me, I have been having very vivid dreams lately. The kind that, while not scary exactly, leave you shaking and confused. I have been waking up more and more at night. Dazed and confused, wondering what woke me up and then remembering my dream. Was it real? Was it is a dream? I almost want to ask people, "Did I talk to you last night?" It is weird.
Anyway, homework is done, house is actually clean, kids are asleep..... so what should mom do?? Ummm, ENJOY THE QUIET!!!!!
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Yet Another Party from Party Central
And not for the Super bowl. I may be one of the few that is neither having nor attending a Super Bowl party. I may or may not watch the game.... I guess I need to make a decision on that soon it starts very shortly. But just wait, in 2 weeks for the Daytona 500! Probably no party but I will be REALLY excited about it.
Since H-man's b-day was on Monday, we waited until today to do his party with his friends. I only served cupcakes, ice cream and Kool-Aid.... yes 6 11 year old boys hyped up on sugar. Oh the fun! They were sword fighting with anything that looked like a sword and even some things that didn't.... like a coat!
There were actually 11 kids total: K, two of her friends, L and another sibling so it was good. The girls stayed hyper longer than the boys.
They played kickball, me too! and played in the yard for the first half. Then the call of the video games was just too overpowering.
H got an Air Hog Rocket. I couldn't find it online but it is sort of like this toy. Now if Johnny Knoxville from MTV's Jackass every retires, H could totally take his place. See the premise of this toy is you pump it full of air and then launch it. And the thing goes HIGH! Well H thought it would be a good, no great idea to stand over it before it launches. Basically jeopardizing my future grandchildren. I warned him as any good mother would, then laughed my head off, tears running down the face after he was doubled over in pain. He is fine by the way, thankfully it mostly hit his thighs.
Now all the children are at home. The house is more or less clean. K went with a friend to a Super Bowl Party so its just me and my boys.
I guess I will turn on the game. Do I cheer for the Bears or the Colts? I really don't care but if the Bears win, will they do a remake of the Superbowl Shuffle?
Since H-man's b-day was on Monday, we waited until today to do his party with his friends. I only served cupcakes, ice cream and Kool-Aid.... yes 6 11 year old boys hyped up on sugar. Oh the fun! They were sword fighting with anything that looked like a sword and even some things that didn't.... like a coat!
There were actually 11 kids total: K, two of her friends, L and another sibling so it was good. The girls stayed hyper longer than the boys.
They played kickball, me too! and played in the yard for the first half. Then the call of the video games was just too overpowering.
H got an Air Hog Rocket. I couldn't find it online but it is sort of like this toy. Now if Johnny Knoxville from MTV's Jackass every retires, H could totally take his place. See the premise of this toy is you pump it full of air and then launch it. And the thing goes HIGH! Well H thought it would be a good, no great idea to stand over it before it launches. Basically jeopardizing my future grandchildren. I warned him as any good mother would, then laughed my head off, tears running down the face after he was doubled over in pain. He is fine by the way, thankfully it mostly hit his thighs.
Now all the children are at home. The house is more or less clean. K went with a friend to a Super Bowl Party so its just me and my boys.
I guess I will turn on the game. Do I cheer for the Bears or the Colts? I really don't care but if the Bears win, will they do a remake of the Superbowl Shuffle?
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