Nothing fixes problems quite like milk and warm cookies right out of the oven! Not to mention it is almost bed time. I know I will sleep good tonight!!!!
I am still feeling overwhelming, confused and like I screwed up which is stupid but I still feel that way.
I am mostly drained. I need him to hold me and tell me that things will be okay. He has become such an important person in my life and someone I just can't imagine giving up or losing.
But I don't regret the words I said or how I feel. Life is just too short not to share feelings with someone so that is why I said it. I haven't lost a lot of people in my life yet. Some that I did lose, I know or at least hope they know what they meant to me. I tell my kids a lot. In my family, we didn't grow up saying "I love you." but I do try to say it to my parents and grandmothers. I want to say it more but it is hard. With all the kids, I can. My nieces and nephews should all know how I feel about them.
But, I digress that isn't what this is about. What this is about is that I am starting to feel a bit better and I am sure I will continue to feel better as time goes by. I know how he feels about me and honestly that is all I expect or want from him. I understood the situation going into it and I still understand. I am not asking him to change and know he can't/won't. I like him so that's good!!! I wouldn't know what to do if he did change... ha, ha.... I am not trying to pressure him into anything else either.
So anyway, if you are down and feeling blue, bake some cookies and get some milk. It is comforting just like home.