So today I was suppose to start my last class. Well mix up, mess up, craziness.... I can't start this week.
To say I'm disappointed is an understatement. I am completely crushed.
But, it will be okay. I just need to come up with the tuition money that I don't have but might have had if they would have told me before today!!! So now I have to figure that out and once I can pay them, I can start again. (Scream).
And, this brings me to the often mentioned topic of "something I miss".... While I can tell myself all day long, "it will be okay, this really isn't a big deal," blah, blah, blah..... I want someone else to tell me and not just someone else, but a boyfriend or a husband type...... neither of which I have at this time. Well I have someone who I would love to lean on right now but we aren't an official couple, just friends which is fine but still..... And, anway, I am saying this as something I miss now as a "single" not a "couple." I want someone who will just tell me all the things I could tell myself. I want that hero person that wants to make everything okay. Strong arms, heartbeat, warmth, just that feel of a man who loves you holding you making all the bad go away if only for that moment!..... Ya know what I'm talking about ladies, don't ya?
My ex was never good with the crying and that's good because I don't really do it often but when I do, its serious and I need serious comfort.
Today is that day.